Funny how everyone but me believes I’ll do OK on this web design midterm coming up.  Somewhere inside of me I don’t think people recognize just how far behind  the learning curve I actually am.  Or.  It could be that once again other people have higher beliefs in my abilities than I do.  I think that is something I’ve needed to work on most of my life.  I have always been surprised when people told me I was smart.  I wonder why that is.  I must not have received enough validation growing up; I guess that is what happens when you grow up in a big family.  Sometimes you are just part of the larger clan, less individual, one of the kids.  Most of the time that was OK with me.  Most of the time it is still OK with me.  But we were  individuals, all good at different things.  It’s odd that it’s taken fifty years for us  to figure out just what we are each good at.  I’m pretty sure computer skills are not ever going to be one of my specialities.  And I’m OK with that.  As long as I pass the course and graduate on time in April I’m OK with it.

The midterm is Wednesday morning.  Stay tuned.

I took a moment this morning to scan through a listing of library job postings.  Of course I saw nothing near me, but did forward a couple of promising posts to a friend looking for academic librarianship in the south.  Georgia and Tennessee sound nice about now as I look out over my snow covered yard criss-crossed by tracks of the deer who ate my shrubs last night.

I’m headed to my local library shortly to begin working on the cheat sheets for my Wednesday midterm in complex web design.  Can’t do it here, as Katie (the dog) has a new name:   KATIE-NO!  The only way she will settle down is if I open the slider and let her snif the fresh (and freezing) air outside.  Meanwhile the furnace is running nonstop.  So I’m abandoning ship.  At the library I can have heat AND peace.

 I need to find work, and I need to get more serious about looking soon.  Maybe sooner than later.  Wish I could spread my wings and fly to some new interesting far-away place, but reality says I need to find something here.  Hopefully something will turn up if I am patient.  And if I get my resume out there…anywhere within a 30 minute commute would make me happy.