Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

A moment of grief


I’ve been away on a three day adventure and I have many things to share with you. But on my return drive, after seven hours of photography interspersed with driving, and one exit away from home I turned on the radio to listen to the news. I’d been out of contact with the world; I wondered what might have happened while I was gone?

And the first sentence uttered by the newscaster was something about “pancreatic cancer” and “her” and “28 years on the court.”

I couldn’t, for a moment, wrap my head around what that could all mean. I knew. But I didn’t want to know. As reality slammed into my brain I pulled off the freeway, found a parking lot, and cried.

RBG was a hero to me and most women I know. A role model. A beacon. Hope.

I know she wanted to stay on the court until after the end of this year. We all wanted that too. But we have to respect the fact that she was 87 and in poor health, and though she was a fighter, sometimes things are not in our control.

As I watched some of the tributes last night I saw a small clip from the documentary about her. How her mother had died when she was 17. Seventy years ago. Seventy years since she’s seen her mom, had a conversation. A hug.

I had to smile. Just think of them together again, the amazing conversations they must be having right now! And the hugs! I’m pretty sure there were hugs when Ruth arrived.

So that’s what I’m focusing on today. She’s with her mother and other members of her family. She’s no longer in pain, she deserves her rest. I send my condolences to those friends and family still here. She left a huge hole in their hearts, and in the hearts of a nation.

Many of us are mourning her today and that’s only right. Next week is soon enough to get to work mitigating the damage her empty seat may cause our nation. We have work to do to honor her legacy.

Change is hard.
(photo credit, CNN)

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

10 thoughts on “A moment of grief

  1. I feel exactly the same way as you do. A great woman has passed. She made this country a better place, and women like Ruth Bader Ginsburg only come along every so often. Rest in power, Warrior Woman.


  2. The loss will be felt around the world. I did not know her or her life’s work until recently, but I knew enough to look upon her as a superhero.


  3. What a nice post. I love that you are thinking about her being with her loved ones now. She was an inspiration.


  4. 28 years is a long time to have served especially when she has been so ill 😦


  5. It was a somber, overcast day in Alabama. Fitting for the sorrow caused by such a beacon of light, extinguished.


  6. It is terribly sad. What an amazing woman. My heart aches for the timing of her death.


  7. When I first saw a friend’s post about it on Facebook, Icould almost feel my stomach twisting into a knot. And my first response was “fuckfuckfuck tired of being polite to the universe.”

    Later I also posted on Facebook a notice of her death, and said merely, “She tried to hold on.” She was an astonishing woman. I had read quite a bit about her over the years because she made me want to search out information about her. I saw both recent films about her, the documentary and the biopic.

    She kept going so long and so ferociously, I completely thought she’d make it to the next political milestone. I thought that Chadwick Boseman would be around for another half dozen hit movies. They both embraced life fully, loved what they did, kept at it with determination and dignity so as not to bother anyone or be bothered, themselves, by the thing that wouldn’t let go of them. They both model the kind of person I’d like to be in the face of personal adversity. They both show the world that it’s possible to be like that, and also that death can be dignified, no matter how much one might wish life to continue.
    I found this while searching this morning for words that might encompass their lives and deaths.


  8. I was sick when I heard. She was such a powerful woman! God took her sooner then we wanted. But you put it all into such a sweet perspective for me… she’s with her Momma!

    and yes… we have work to do now…


  9. Thank you for writing this, Dawn. I started to many times but couldn’t find the words. What you wrote seems perfect.


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