Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Remembering Grandma

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Yesterday I got 7 more yards of mulch. Really.

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And of course today it’s in the 90’s, which makes spreading mulch not so fun. I did some of the spreading and spent some of the day digging up rogue plants that had moved into areas they didn’t belong, along with their corresponding weed friends. The deer have already eaten plants I put in pots out in the garden, my pink lilies that I haven’t seen bloom in years, the phlox and now are starting in on the sedum which had never been touched in previous years. Every year is a new learning experience! I DO have one iris blossoming:

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Which made me happy today. Might as well enjoy it today, because tomorrow it could be deer fodder.

As I was weeding the perennial bed I thought about other people and their relationship problems that seem so overwhelming. My little problem of not having a job doesn’t seem to be nearly as earth shattering as what several other people are going through. A twenty year marriage ending, a relationship that never had a chance to begin. It’s like the world has gone a little bonkers all around me.

I’m contemplating this while weeding tall grass out of my Russian Sage plants. The smell of the sage lingers on my fingers and instantly I felt myself back in my grandmother’s yard, out on the farm, over 30 years ago. And for just an instant the smells of the garden remind me of good days long ago, remind me of times when life seemed simpler. But I bet if I had asked grandma back then I’d have found that she too thought things were a little bonkers all around her! She was 96 when she died in 1982, and she had seen some pretty amazing and most likely crazy things in her lifetime.

So the big concept here is that it’s all relevant. Every day has simple components, pulling weeds, smelling memories. Every day has craziness, hearing sad stories about people and their relationship problems . But every day also has hope; that tomorrow there will be more simple things and fewer crazy things, and maybe even more opportunities to remember happy times from long ago.

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

4 thoughts on “Remembering Grandma

  1. I want to say that it helps to know that people are thinking about me (it is me, isn’t it?). Someone emailed me today, and when I wrote her back I said, “sometimes I feel so physically alone here – where I live – that I forget that I’m not really ever alone in any of this.” Thank you for helping me not feel alone.

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  2. You’re welcome. 🙂

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  3. Those are great memories.

    Melanie, you aren’t alone in many ways. Some ways, yes. But other ways, no.

    Dawn, I haven’t forgotten about giving this blog a face lift of sorts. And upgrading your version of WordPress.

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  4. Spike, looking forward to the new version!

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