Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.


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Our adventure

My husband has been up north with me this week.  We took a bit of a side trip even further north, into the Upper Peninsula.  For those of you that live far away and wonder what an Upper Peninsula is, check out a map of Michigan, we have two parts!  The lower which is shaped like a mitten, and the upper which is connected to the lower by the 5 mile long Mackinaw Bridge.

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I haven’t been in the UP in many years, and it felt a bit like going home to cross that bridge again.  Originally we weren’t sure exactly where we were headed, and I suggested we just get in the car and see where we ended up.  You know, an adventure!  We ended up heading to Tahquamemon Falls, a series of waterfalls known for their root beer colored water.  The redness in the water is caused by tannins leached from cedar swamps through which the river flows.  The state park wasn’t officially open, but we parked where we could and hiked in to see the river.  There are lower falls…

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..which flow around an island, usually reached by park owned rowboats.  This time of year the rowboats were stored, waiting patiently for spring and the tourists to arrive.

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And the more dramatic upper falls…

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We walked up and down hundreds of stairs and enjoyed having the park to ourselves.

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After we finished our exploration of both falls we drove up to Whitefish Point, a place just about as far north as you can go in this part of the UP along the shores of Lake Superior.  It was bitter cold and very windy, and we only stayed on the beach a few minutes.  The waves were rolling in and it was beautiful.  I’ll be back some summer when the weather is a bit more tolerable!

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We had a really nice time and proved to ourselves once again that we’re not too old to enjoy a good adventure!

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Still

Northport March April 2010 344 I went for an inland walk today, away from the mesmerizing lake into the sunlit woods looking for a bit of stillness.  And of course photo opportunities.  There were signs of spring everywhere, even way up here.  I was surprised to realize the pussy willows are blooming already.  The sun was shining, there was a light breeze.  It was good to be outside after the past couple of cold windy days.

There was a  faint smell of wood smoke hanging in the air which took me back to another life in another place where people heat with wood and life was simple.  Funny how you look back at times in your life with nostalgia, refusing to remember the whole picture, like the 6 foot snowdrifts and the often lonely isolation.  You remember instead the beauty of Lake Superior, the rolling mountains, the moose glimpsed from the highway.

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There’s a land preserve down the road and I ventured in to see what was there.  When I was a kid we used to play in the woods all the time, and this felt a bit like home to me.  I found lots of signs of the impending spring, there was green everywhere. Northport March April 2010 345

I sat on a log, trying to be quiet – trying to find the stillness inside of me.  The log was cold.  And bumpy.  I put my gloves under me for padding and tried again to find the stillness inside.  It’s been a long time since I’ve been in the woods and quiet on my own.   It took a bit of time to settle in.  Such quiet.  I thought that I could still hear the lake which made no sense as it was quiet this morning.  Then I realized I was hearing the bit of breeze blowing through millions of tree tops.  It quietly rustled the dry leaves on the forest floor, and occasionally rattled last year’s dogwood leaves still on their branches.  A squirrel chattered for a moment somewhere. Far away a bird drummed.  Nearby a  bluejay screamed.  Then relative silence. Northport March April 2010 360

Yet I couldn’t get my mind to settle down, to empty.  Everywhere I saw photographs, shapes and color, texture and light.  So tempting to get up and tramp around making noise, interrupting the natural way of things.

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So I sat.  “This is what the forest sounds like when I’m not here,” I thought.  How interesting.  How wonderful.  How peaceful.  And so I sat some more.  Finally my mind emptied and I just enjoyed.   And then I wandered back.

And on the way I wondered about the young man whose parents fought to keep this land preserved in his name.  He must have been pretty special.

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Probably need to limit my rock intake

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I’ve been walking the beach here, looking for that Petoskey stone.    Yesterday I didn’t need to go far before my fingers were freezing from dipping them into the cold waves, and my pockets were full.

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I took my new collection back to the house to see what I had.  Look!  Aren’t they beautiful?  And the rock at the 6:00 location on the plate?  A Petoskey stone!

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At this rate of accumulation I’ll need to rent a U-Haul to drag them all home.  So I think I need to put a limit on how many I can collect a day.  Or maybe the limit should be per week…like two stones a week?  But at that rate I’m all done for my entire time here.

Later in the day I drove down to a small village and had lunch.  Plus I bought an owl.  OK, so it’s a ROCK that was carved into an owl.  Another stone to take home.  Guess that means I’m done.

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Learning to relax

Northport March April 2010 048 Puttering is a learned skill.  So is relaxing.  You’d think I’d have those down, given I’m not working at the moment.  No job related stress to distract me from enjoying life.  But during a walk today I figured out that I haven’t really learned to relax.  Not totally.

I’m cat sitting for a friend, living in her home on the shores of a Great Lake.  What a joy to look out the windows and see one of my favorite lakes.  This morning as the sun was coming up it made a white freighter out on the horizon glow.  I went outside and realized I could here it chugging way out there on the curve of the earth.  Trying to take a picture of something so far away and small was hard, but here’s a couple of pictures, one of me reflected in the house windows, with the ship reflected near my head.

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In just 24 hours I’ve seen countless shades of blue, green and gray in the water.  I could sit and watch it for hours.  But of course I don’t.  I’ve gone to the grocery store and made spaghetti sauce, I’ve played with the cat, I’ve checked emails.  I’ve even started my “up north” exercise regime, to replace the mall walking I’ve been doing at home.  My plan was to walk up and down the stairs to the beach for ten minutes today, working up to 30 minutes in a few days.  Right.  This morning after six round trips I gave up…five minutes after I began.  But tomorrow is another day.

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When my legs could stand the work I went down to the beach for a walk.  I hope to find a Petoskey stone while I’m here.  That’s a grey stone with specific  shapes within it.   They are actually fossils from about 360 million years ago, when this area was part of a coral reef under a sea.   They appear on the beach along this shore of the lake, but everyone wants to find one, so we’ll see.  You can see a picture of one and read a little bit about them here:  http://www.statefossils.com/mi/mistone.html

On this walk I found a cool smooth brown stone with parallel lines running through it.  Very peaceful and zen-like.  It made me slow down and realize I couldn’t walk the beach like I walked the mall…fast… and still find the elusive Petosky stone.  And that for today finding the smooth brown stone was good enough.   Because if I remember to slow down, I have tomorrow to look again.

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Pruning and teeter

It was a beautiful day today, sunny and in the 50’s, just a bit of breeze coming to us from that storm on the east coast.  So I set about doing a bit of tree trimming.  Probably no one else but me will  be able to tell what I have trimmed out of three ornamental trees.  But I know.  Plus it felt really good to be outside doing some sort of yard work.  I put a few of the trimmed bits from my redbud tree in a stone vase.  Just in case they’d like to bloom a bit early inside.

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Then since it was so nice out, and because I’m leaving tomorrow for 3 weeks and won’t have another chance, Katie and I went out to try her teeter again.  This time no towels to muffle the banging.  She did pretty good.  It’s still not her favorite thing, but if enticed with cheese she’ll slowly trot across.  She stops at the central part to wait for it to drop, and I think that’s quite smart of her.  If I don’t have the treat ready she’d still rather hop off at the middle, but if the treat is waiting for her at the end of the plank she’ll inch her way down to it.

I don’t see the exuberance she exhibited when she figured out the dogwalk though.  I’m not sure she thinks this is fun yet.

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Where’s my treat Mom?

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Is this a good 2o2o?  How long do I have to stand like this anyway?

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I hope she has a good time with her Dad while I’m gone, and that she still remembers how easy teeter is next time I get it out.  She’s a smart dog, I’m sure she’ll humor me.

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Another Amazing Ann Arbor Symphony Adventure

This evening husband and I, along with my aunt, were privileged to attend another Ann Arbor Symphony performance.  The concert was called “American Celebration” and all the works played were composed in the United States.  Much of the music had a uniquely American feeling, sounds that might have come from a bit of the old west, some raucous comedy, the noise of a busy city street, peacefulness of  quiet reflection.   It is a gift to experience an evening of Ann Arbor Symphony music filling the hall at the Michigan Theater; the sounds created by individual musicians combining  into something bigger and grander than can really be described.  But of course I’ll try.

Tonight’s  first offering was  “Seattle Slew:  Three Dances in Forequarter Time” composed by William Bolcom, a Pulitzer Prize and Grammy Award winner, Seattle native and professor emeritus of composition at the University of Michigan.  We heard just one of the three dances, a lively, fun, sometimes humorous piece composed for dancers and to honor the horse Seattle Slew.  I was sitting about 7 rows behind the composer during the performance, and I could just see the top of his head as it moved to the music he had written.  What a wondrous thing that must be, to hear your work done by such professionals!  Of course Mr. Bolcom has undoubtedly heard his work played many times, but I have to imagine that each time brings heartfelt joy, especially when the piece is done as well as it was tonight.

The second piece featured a piano soloist, Arkadiy Figlin, doing George Gershwin’s Concerto in F.  Did I mention this concert was amazing?  Gershwin is always fun, and Mr. Figlin’s  improvisations made this rendition spectacular.  He told us during the pre concert lecture that he was “a bit nervous” about tonight’s concert because he wasn’t sure exactly what he was going to play during his improv opportunities.  After listening to him perform I have to say I don’t think he needed to worry.  The first movement was so extraordinary, and ended with such strength and beauty that the audience broke into enthusiastic applause even though traditionally all applause should be held until the entire piece is finished.  And it wasn’t just one or two misguided folk who broke the “no applause till the end rule” …it was all of us, and let me tell you, we aren’t ashamed of our misbehavior!

All three movements of the Gershwin piece reminded me of sound tracks to movies.  The first was a fun, quickly moving piece and I pictured some lighthearted romance in a city, say New York, maybe in Central Park, where actors like Doris Day and Tony Curtis would frolic while the sounds of city traffic floated in the distance.  The second movement began in a more moody vein, as if it were the background music for Humphrey Bogart sitting in a dark 1930’s smokey bar, him staring into his drink and feeling blue over some girl he’d lost.  Then the music changed and I imagined a new dame sashaying into the bar catching his attention.  As he watches her he starts to imagine a whole life with her.  You know, the suburban house, 2 or 3 kids, a dog, drives in the country in a convertible…the improv of the solo pianist made me feel like there was going to be a happy ending after all for everyone.  The third movement reminded me of a car chase in a silent movie, all black and white and jerky.  Maybe Charlie Chaplin driving the getaway car, followed by some keystone type cops.  Up and down the mountain road they roar, Chaplin hiding his car behind boulders on occasion, then shooting out the other way, always just ahead of the cops.  The ending of the piece was clear to me; the cops crash into a big rock and Charlie drives off into the magnificent sunset, tipping his hat and winking at us on his way out. Now, really I doubt that anyone else saw these pictures in their mind as Mr. Figlin and the Symphony played, but you never know.  What I DO know is that we were all on our feet as the last notes died away and Mr. Figlin got two curtain calls.

I think we would have been satisfied if  the concert had ended with Gershwin, the program had been that fantastic, but we were in for a third treat–a more traditional symphony, No 9 in E minor From the New World, by Antonin Dvorak.   A strong piece with interchanging melodies,  the orchestra took off in the first movement, on fire and  pounding out the relentlessly compelling melody.  The second movement contained the music most of us recognize as the spiritual “Going Home.”  You know the one…

“Goin’ home, goin’ home, I’m a goin’ home;
Quiet-like, some still day, I’m jes’ goin’ home.

It’s not far, jes’ close by,
Through an open door;
Work all done, care laid by,
Goin’ to fear no more.

Mother’s there ‘spectin’ me,
Father’s waitin’ too;
Lots o’ folks gather’d there,
All the friends I knew,
All the friends I knew.
Home, I’m goin’ home!”

This song has special meaning to my family, as we’ve used it in so many funerals and memorials in recent years.  The orchestra played it like a prayer, and I cried silent tears all the way through, sent it up to Mom and Dad and hoped they were listening.  The third movement was strong and quiet, big and beautiful, small and delicate, a joy to listen to, and a perfect ending to an amazing evening.

I know this blog entry turned out to be long…but I want to use this opportunity to encourage anyone that lives within a couple hours of Ann Arbor to investigate attending a performance as soon as you can.  If you haven’t been you’re missing a treat.  Even if you don’t think you’re into “classical music,” give it a try.   You just might find yourself sitting silently with tears running down your face.

And that’s a good thing.


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Snow? What snow?

We got temps into the 60’s yesterday.  Most of the snow melted, though there’s still a little bit in shady areas.  Katie and I couldn’t resist spending some time at the park.  We went a week ago and the snow was still so deep that I ended up carrying her over a half mile back to the car.  She’s such a princess.

Anyway, here are some pictures of our adventures…

Last week:

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and this week:

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Last week she just sat down and wouldn’t go any further.  Carrying her out I had to stop and rest at a picnic table.

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This week she didn’t want to stop.  So many things to sniff!  But on entry to the park, a low spot was flooded with spring runoff.  What to do?

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We can walk around it Mom!  Maybe through the tall grass?

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Maybe not so much.  Carry me Mom?

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We had lots of interesting things to investigate…a deflated party balloon …

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…and the noisy rushing sound of water moving under a culvert…

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Mostly we just had fun exploring.  And of course posing for the camera…

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Have you noticed that it’s a bit windy?  No?  Well, here’s another clue…

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Oh the indignity of it all!

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On the other hand….the wind makes her look more adorable!

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Don’t you think?

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Katie's tiny teeter totter

Here’s a photo of Katie on her handmade tiny teeter totter.  Tonight she was persuaded to run across it a couple times, bounced around on it and didn’t seem too upset by the gentle banging of the board against the towels underneath.  She started out jumping off before the end of the board, as it banged on the driveway, but by the end of our short session she would go all the way to the end if I kept my hand with the treat by her nose.  I think I should try a plate with a target on it tomorrow.

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This tiny totter was made using her dog walk board.  Husband screwed a couple of 1×2’s under it so that I can place a 2 inch pipe under, slightly off center, so it always tips back to the right.  It makes a nice banging noise, similar to a real teeter, especially when I take the towel out from under it.  Though when I did that tonight she got freaky, so we stopped.

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