Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.


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Training Challenge (3)

This week I decided to take Katie to a place she’s never been before with smells she’s never smelled before and sights she’s never seen before.  She was all happy to be GOING SOMEWHERE!  She loves to travel and we had her car back from the shop so she got to travel in her very own comfortable and safe crate.  Happy happy dog.

But as soon as I arrived at my surprise destination and opened up the back she started to shake.  Typical Katie; new smells, new sounds, new everything is just so scary!  So.  Do you want to know where we went?  Is this a clue?

We visited a local dairy farm where they sell the most wonderful ice cream.  People buy the ice cream and then wander among the dairy cows.  It’s a pretty unique experience – to be eating the sweet ice cream while smelling the sweet …well…  smells of cows.  Up close and personal.

From the start Katie wasn’t too keen on the whole thing.  There’s a covered picnic area quite a ways from the cows, and we walked around there for awhile till she stopped shaking.  Then I started doing obedience patterns with her and since I had cheese, well cheese trumped fear, which was a good sign that she was adjusting.  When she’s really scared she refuses cheese, and we were never in that place on this adventure.

Eventually I heeled her over nearer the cows, and then we just walked in the middle of the walkway, not too close, all the way to the back of the barns.  She was interested in all the animals but not pulling on the leash to get any closer to them.  Till she saw the baby pigs.  THOSE she wanted to meet, and they wanted to meet her too!

Then it was back through all the big cows, and she tried to sit where I told her to, but it was just too close and she decided she’d rather not.  LOL  I didn’t push the issue, my whole goal was for her to get comfortable quickly in a totally foreign environment and I think she did that.

On our way back to the car we stopped to let a family with three young children pet Katie.  Another thing we need to work on.  She allowed all three to pet her gently on the side, but only after I asked her to sit, and got down there with her.  Otherwise she continues to shy away from people that want to meet her.

All in all it was a successful trip.  And mama didn’t even eat any ice cream!


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Saturdays

When I was a kid my parents had a list of chores that had to be done Saturday mornings.   The list was generated after we were in bed on Friday nights, and awaited us on the kitchen table when we got up the next day.   Chores were grouped in relationship to how hard they were.  And every chore had a little box in front of it where we would put our initial, indicating we’d do the work described.  We each had to chose one of the harder ones first, and had to finish it before we could choose another easier task.  We were allowed to sign up for only one chore at a time.

Here’s the trick and the reason this worked.  There were four of us.  And if any of us wanted to make sure we didn’t  have to do the really yucky jobs we’d be up and out of bed before our siblings so that we could claim the least worst job for ourselves.  And we didn’t dawdle doing the work either, because we wanted to make sure we got the next least horrible chore.

So this Saturday as I mentally list the things I should get done I picture that chore list with it’s little boxes ready for initials.  And I smile.  We might have thought it was terrible back when we were teenagers, but right now I’d be thrilled to share my list of jobs with my three siblings!

Cause there isn’t anyone else here that’s going to initial the boxes on my list of things to do!


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What!?

Katie and I are out on the deck this Friday morning mostly because she’s so persistent.  She’s been bugging me constantly and I’ve done all the things this usually means including going outside with her so that she can do her job 3 times.  In an hour.  Which apparently is not what she really meant when she whined at me 2 of the times.

Now we’re outside and finished practicing weaves.  I’ve settled in with my laptop and she’s bugging me again, poking her nose against my leg, sniffing my pocket.  Just in case.  When most people check their pockets before doing laundry it’s to look for keys or, even better, money.  I check to make sure they’re empty of dog treats.  I know many of you relate.

I notice it’s not so humid nor as hot as it’s been for the past few weeks.  And when Katie and I went off to do our weekly adventure yesterday I saw a tree that was turning colors.  This morning the goldfinches are fighting over the thistle feeder, eating like pigs in preparation for migration…but at least they are still gold.  Geese are beginning to fly in formation when all summer I’ve seen them in pairs.  Just now the wind picked up and I am saddened to see golden leaves dropping from the birch trees, gathering on the deck.  And a burning bush in the back yard glows with just a hint of the red that is coming.

So…my response to Katie begging for attention is the same as my response to the subtle clues that summer is ending:   WHAT!!????


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Zoning out

This afternoon Katie and I went out to hunt for chipmunks.  Well, she went out to hunt for chipmunks; I was just enjoying the pretty day.  We stopped for a sit underneath the red bud tree.  I noticed the heart shaped leaves against the blue sky.  Katie noticed the chipmunk under the deck.

I dozed a bit, thinking about stuff; my employment situation, the housing market, what to have for supper.  You know – important stuff.   Katie did not doze.  When I came around she was sitting at attention exactly where she was before.  I’d like to think she was guarding me as I napped.  But I think she was just waiting for that chipmunk to venture out from under the deck.

Silly girl.


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What 8.5 miles sounds like

This morning I went out for my long walk in preparation for the 10 mile race coming up in a couple of weeks.  The plan was to do 8 miles; my favorite hilly 4 mile loop and then a less hilly 4 mile out and back.  The plan changed during the first mile when I had to pass a recently squished groundhog.  To avoid having to pass that groundhog three times I decided to do the first 3 miles of my favorite hilly 4 mile loop, then turn around and do 2 of those miles in the other direction, add a different 2.5 out and back and then head for home, holding my breath when I passed said deceased groundhog while looking studiously the other way.  Good plan.

Since I wasn’t going to carry a camera I thought I’d share my walk with you through the sounds I heard along the way.  Think of this as an audio nature report.  You get to add the visual through your own imagination.  You’re welcome to come along:

Early in the walk I am amused by the sounds of brown squirrels barking angrily at me from high up in massive old oaks and tall hickory trees.  Then, while I am focusing on the trees, trying to find the squirrels, there comes a startling rustle from the tall grass near the edge of the road.   About 6 inches from my left foot!   A very much alive groundhog hustles for safety under cover of the grass to his drain pipe underneath a driveway.  And before I can recover from that a loud swooshing noise makes me literally jump as hundreds of blackbirds sweep up and out of the trees overhead, then swarm around and land, only to sweep up into the sky over and over.  The sound is amazing and indescribable.

Chugging up a hill I tried to keep my steps and even my breathing silent as I creep past a house that has three dogs in the yard.  They have never actually come out into the road, but they bark a lot, and it was such a peaceful morning that I don’t want to incite them.  Success!  On beyond the dogs’ house I head downhill and approach a tight corner.  I’m on the inside where cars coming up the hill and rounding the corner can’t see me.   I hear a car coming up behind me so I can’t cross to the other side of the road.  I remind myself that one car’s noise can often cover up a second car’s approach so I slow down.   Sure enough just as the first car passed me another, undetected, came toward me from around the corner.  As I hopped up the bank to give the car room I make up a saying:  “A  wise country walker is vigilant at all times.”

Moving down the hill, coming out of the woods and heading across the wetlands a young male cardinal chirps at me from the underbrush along the road and later bright yellow and green goldfinches chatter happily as they hop among the grasses of the marsh.  As I approach the backside of town I listen to the rumble of a train coming and the hum of air conditioning units straining under the rising heat of another summer day.

I turn around in town, the end of mile 3, and walk back toward the marsh this time moving on the other side of the road.  A bit of water gurgles down the drainage ditch, widening and getting deeper as it gets closer to a stream.  At the bottom of the hill small frogs plop from the sides of the ditch landing splat into the water.  A chickadee goes through his litany of calls, then hops out to the end of a branch to watch me go by.

Back up into the cool dark woods I climb, the hum of the frogs in the swamp replaced by the higher pitched hum of bugs accented by what I think of as the “futuristic bug,” the one with the high pitched electronic sound that starts and stops, gaining in volume then cutting out.  I creep by the dogs’ house again and sigh in relief as I make the edge of their property without hearing their excited barking.  I’m further along the road, under the canopy of trees and hidden by the brush when I hear:  “DON’T GO THERE! DON’T GO THERE!”  I stop…consider…and wait to hear what’s next.  Then I hear:  “GOOD DOG!”  I laugh -and mosey on.

Now I’m five miles into my walk and I’m begin to have trouble with my IT band.  That’s a muscle or ligament or something that holds your kneecap in place.  I think.  Anyway the inside of my right knee is starting to get sore, and it is distracting me from the sights and sounds of walking in the woods.  It’s making me watch where I place my feet and not the scenery.  I began to hear nothing except the argument in my head.  Should I head for home and just do 6 miles?  Or continue on and risk injury?  A lawn mower sputters to life somewhere nearby.  The argument continues.  But just before the corner where I must make a decision I begin to walk on pavement after miles of walking on uneven dirt roads.  The knee feels much better now.  It’s still a beautiful day.  I had committed to 8 miles.  Heck I still have water left in my bottle so I continue on.

Now the sound of the freeway dominates my walk.  But along the way a chipmunk scurries into the underbrush sounding like something much larger.  A blue-jay cries.  Mourning doves coo.  I notice the sun is beating down and there are no woods to hide in.  The booming of a radio alerts me to a car coming up from behind and I step onto the shoulder.

Mile 7 and my knee is no longer having a good time.  Soon I’m not hearing any sounds other than my knee shouting at me and my mind berating my bad decision.  By mile 8 I’m considering hitch hiking.  Then with half a mile to go I’m just watching my feet and slowly slogging away.  One more hill, one more corner.  I stand in my neighbor’s sprinkler to rest.  I wonder about this whole 10 mile walk thing which is coming up in two weeks as I hobble home.

Now I’m sitting with the leg up, ice on the knee.  Katie is licking the salty slime off the rest of me.  Silly girl.  They say what doesn’t kill you makes you strong.

Here’s hoping that’s true.


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Challenge Training Sunday (2); aka more of the same. Except different.

Katie hates our truck.  So it’s been a tough week for her because our SUV, the one with her comfy crate in the back, has been at the shop getting fixed.  That means that any far away adventures she and I might want to experience requires using the truck!  The big blue scary truck!  Her general reaction when presented with the open truck door is to run the other way, pull frantically on her leash and if possible paw at the front door trying to get back inside the safety of her home.  We don’t understand why.  But then there are so many of her sheltie-isms that we don’t understand.

So this week’s training challenge was to get her less afraid of the truck.  And of course to continue to work on the lunging at cars thing.  Because last week’s work sure didn’t translate to her behavior here at home.  At all.

All week, whenever she and I went anywhere we used the truck.  To the park?  Great!  Get in the truck!  See?  Not so scary!  Go for a ride?  Sure!  Get in the truck!  See?  That was fun!  Go get nails trimmed at the groomer?  Get in the truck.  Uh oh.  Big mistake on mama’s part.  She hates the groomer and shook the entire ride.   How does she know she’s not going to the park or the pet store?  I have no idea.  Must be sheltie-vision or something.

All in all though she’s getting over most of her fear of the truck.  A couple evenings ago when I asked her if she wanted to go to the park she ran out the front door and stood expectantly beside the truck.  GOOD GIRL!  And yesterday as we were going out to do her job we walked by the truck and she stopped, looked at the truck door, then at me like -HEY MOM!  Can we go go to the PARK?

So later in the day she and I headed out on another adventure in the big blue truck.  We had to head toward town and get some gas first, which is in the opposite direction from our usual route to the park.  Katie looked at me and was obviously trying to telepathically inform  me that I was going the wrong way.  And that it worried her, because the groomer is on this route, don’t you know.

She did really well at the gas station.  I was worried because it was hot and even though the windows were open I didn’t want her in there too long without the air.  So I fumbled through the transaction, taking longer than normal because I had to keep checking on her.

As soon as I turned on the car she enjoyed the air conditioning!

Then since we were halfway to town I took her the rest of the way in, figuring we could walk on some neighborhood sidewalks where we’ve never been before and work on that lunging at cars problem.

I parked a block off main street and headed toward the residential district.  I totally forgot that this street was a cut through for traffic.  It was nonstop cars.  And several motorcycles.  And quite a few trucks…some pulling giant boats.  NOISY!  Every time there would be a string of cars I asked Katie to sit.  I kept telling her to stay, stay…and when she sat through the whole line she’d get her cheese.  I think I was more freaked out than she was.  There was WAY TOO MUCH TRAFFIC for me!  And it was way too close.  She did really well  but obviously I need more training.

We only went about two blocks, mostly because I forgot to bring a poopy bag with me, and these houses all had beautiful green manicured lawns.  I just KNEW if we went very far I’d have an embarrassing situation on my hands.  So to speak.  We walked back to the car, got a drink and headed out to our nice peaceful park.  She did some heeling work and long sits and downs like an expert.  I’ve got her (and me too I guess!) signed up for a Rally trial Sept 12.

I need more practice.


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Blueberry mist

My aunt called me the other evening and suggested we meet midway between our homes and pick a few blueberries.  While it’s still blueberry season.

It’s been so hot.  Oh yes, I think I already told you that, but anyway…it’s been so hot I haven’t wanted to go out and pick any fruit, though as a kid we always went strawberry, cherry, and blueberry picking.  And as an adult I used to try really hard to carry on the tradition.  But picking fruit alone turns out to be less of a fun adventure and more like hard work.  Especially when it’s hot.  Which it is.  As you know.

Anyway, we decided to get there when they opened, early in the morning before the heat became intolerable and as luck would have it we drove into a heavy mist as we approached the blueberry farm.

And I confirmed once again that picking fruit with someone on the other side of the row is much more fun that wistfully listening in on other family’s discussions.

Yum!


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Walking in the fog

It’s been so warm here, the kind of warm I remember from childhood.  You remember…when you were a kid before houses had air conditioning and you slept on top of your sheets with your pj’s sticking to you and the window of your bedroom open so that the hot air outside could mingle with the hot air inside and your skin felt sticky and your pillow was hot…well…that’s how hot it’s been here these past couple of weeks.

Yesterday morning we woke to fog, and it felt a bit cooler, though maybe that was just an illusion brought on by the gray light and the cooling droplets of mist that stuck to my face and in my hair.  Since I’m still “in training” for that big 10 mile race coming up at the end of the month I decided I’d take myself for a walk before the sun got too strong and burned away the only bit of cool we’ve had in a long time.

So off I went.  The first mile ended at an overpass where as I watched the cars I realized that I was lucky I wasn’t headed off to work when so many people had to, especially those that were getting ready for a new school year to begin.

I’ve been thinking that I need to find work somewhere, and that the odds of me finding it as a librarian are slim…and getting slimmer.  Maybe I’m going to have to start expanding the criteria of work that I’m willing to do.  Maybe I’ll have to defer the dream job for awhile.  Though it sure was fun to dream.

Deep in contemplation I walked further down roads I haven’t walked in a good long time.  Past the golf course which was surprisingly (to me anyway) busy for a foggy weekday morning.

I walked six miles in total, and as the fog lifted I came across my favorite photo of the walk – the side of a barn covered in vines and layers of paint.

Isn’t it beautiful?  It’s sat on the side of this road for many years and I wonder how many people have enjoyed it’s colors prior to me wandering by.  It spoke to me, as if to say; “I’ve been around a long time and I’m still here.  You’ll weather this economic downturn  fine… you may end up with a few surprising colors of paint, but you’ll survive…just like me.”

It was a good walk.