Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Embracing fall

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It was hard to let August go, to feel it slip away.  I tried to make it stay longer but it was like hugging jello.  The more I held on the faster it slid away from me.  It seems August fled from most of us; everywhere I hear people exclaiming how quickly the first days of September have arrived.

I don’t know why I struggled so much with the loss of summer this year.  It’s not as though I have children heading to school so I can’t say that I’m pensive about them growing up.  And I’m not a school employee heading back either.  My work at the bank is the same regardless of the month at the top of the wall calendar.

It’s not that I truly love hot weather, or pulling weeds, or watering, or watching trees we planted two years ago struggle.  My garden produced a handful of green beans and two or three tomatoes.  That’s it.  We bought most of our produce from the farmers’ market.  Our grass was brown for weeks on end and so prickly that even the dog didn’t want to walk on it.

Maybe it’s just that I love the long days and the evenings spent on the deck reading or watching the birds.  But I can still do that for awhile as we head into autumn.  Maybe it’s just the dread of the dark mornings heading to work followed by the dark commute home.  Maybe it’s just the thought of slippery roads, downed power lines, or quick trips out with the dog that require layers of clothes and big boots to be dragged from the closet and worn so that she can prance through the snow to find a perfect spot.

Regardless of why it was so hard for me to let August go this year today I decided to embrace the fall.  I went for my lunch walk through the neighborhood and saw maple leaves turning red and yellow and orange.  Not all over mind you, just here and there.  Hickory nuts had fallen to the sidewalk and asters were in bloom.  People with gardens more successful than mine had ripe tomatoes waiting to be picked, and miles and miles of vine covering zucchinis as big as footballs.  Children were out on the playground, swinging high or chasing a big rubber ball.  The sun shone down and warmed us all.

I admit I was sad to see August go but September has been beautiful so far.  I think I’m looking forward to the change.

Change doesn’t always have to be hard.

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

8 thoughts on “Embracing fall

  1. I always say that I wish I had september and october off, instead of July and August. I love the fall. Definitely my favorite time of year.

    What a great idea to get out for a lunch walk.

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  2. Aunt Dawn, I like your style of writing it’s very easy and comfortable to read. I am trying to embrace change myself and looking forward to the change of season in more ways than one!

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  3. I have sort of enjoyed summer – I don’t mind the hot weather per se but the endless months of it here and not being able to take the boys out – sort of drove me and them stir crazy. The sad thing is – like spring – fall only seems to last a couple of weeks and wham winter will be here…..it was like that for spring – we had about two weeks of it and what is was into the stinking hot summer.

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  4. I love fall, but not so much the winter that follows. It’s a bit of a conundrum for me, because I didn’t like not having distinct seasons when I lived in Southern California, but I grow weary of our forever-long winters. If only fall could last through November and winter last only for December and January. If only. . . .

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  5. I LOVE Fall, so I’m happy to see August go — that said, I know I’ll miss the longer days of summertime! And I’m not exactly looking forward to Winter’s icy blast, but my Sheltie is. This has been a hard, hot summer for him!

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  6. I did wonder where you were for some time but didn’t really look for you as I was really busy at home since Rosie was home.

    I like your new blog look, it’s really neat.

    Change is hard and I don’t like changes especially if they are major changes as I never feel good and safe.

    I love Fall but it is sad that we only have summer all year round.

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  7. Fall (in my opinion) is the most beautiful season ever! When the air wasn’t so cold yet, but so rich with wonderful spices aroma. Maybe because it’s closer to thanksgiving but in my opinion Falls somehow associate with more family time. The day are shorter and weather are a bit cooler, so kids mostly hang around at home. More quality family time.
    But I’m with you, this year it seems to sad to let summer go. Embracing fall this year give me mixed feeling. I can’t wait for my favorite season to arrive and yet I feel so sad. Right before my dad went home to Indonesia last June, we made a plan for him to go back in October. I was talking to him about how beautiful it is here during fall, I mention to him places I would take him to see the leaves color change, also halloween, a tradition that is not common in Indonesia. I told him how fun it is to dress up and to see kids dress up and come to your door for trick or treat.. and it’s also my Tyra’s birthday. That’s the main reason he’s planning to come back in the fall, for his granddaughter birthday. Just the thoughts that all of that stay as is.. just a plan made me so sad to welcome fall this year. During my 10 years living here never once my dad visit me in the fall and I just keep on regreting that I have never enforce that idea… Although I know he’s now in a place that is more beautiful than here and how he look down smiling on us. It’s still made me very sad….
    I’m so sorry for this pity comment… 😦

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    • Oh Sendi-Lou, not a pity comment at all. So many plans left uncompleted, so many moments that you won’t get to experience together. But remember that your Dad will get to see your fall this year, through your eyes. Because he’s right there with you. Honest he is.

      But I know how you feel about fall…the first fall after my parents died was very hard too, as everything seemed like it was dying and I couldn’t stop crying. I think it’s Ok to be like that. I think it’s normal to be like that. And I think most people will understand when you need to cry or feel sad.

      It’s OK for you to be exactly like you are wherever you are in the process. Really OK. Trust me on that.

      Hugs,
      Dawn

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