I’m having the weirdest day. Is ‘weirdest’ a word? Hmmm…looks sort of, well, weird. Anyway.
This morning as I was leaving for work I wanted to change the car radio from f.m. to a.m. so that I could listen to the traffic report but I couldn’t remember how. I pushed the wrong button several times, confused. Darn small buttons anyway.
When I got to work I asked one of my employees to work on a problem file and she told me she would not. I did not react well to being told no. I felt this red hot rage rush up my body from the soles of my feet through the top of my head until it consumed me. I hung up on her and then took a walk to calm down. My reaction was totally out of proportion to the infraction and my boss had to talk me down. Darn employees anyway.
After work my husband met me for dinner before we went to the hospital to visit Aunt V. Some little girl in the next booth was laughing a lot and loud and I wanted to crawl over the seat and strangle her. Totally ruined the dinner. Darn little kids anyway.
By the time we got to the hospital I could hardly wait to get away again, as if I could not stay in my own skin. Darn noisy, smelly hospitals anyway.
I’ve been nominated to serve on an advisory committee to monitor some truck stuff and I need to send in my resume and a couple of other documents. I needed to get that together tonight and I couldn’t find my resume on my laptop. Eventually we found it on the desktop computer, and husband emailed it to me. Then I couldn’t figure out how to get it to a place I could edit it. Then I did get it edited but couldn’t figure out how to save it. Eventually I just sent it the way it was. Close enough. Darn technology anyway.
While I was looking for my resume, searching through documents stored on my laptop, I came across the rough draft of a (very) short story. I have no recollection of writing it. It’s pretty good. It might have been a dream I had. Or not. Maybe I didn’t write it. But how else would it be there. It’s not like me to copy something into a document. And there are parts of it that seem like something I might write. But I don’t remember this story at all. Darn memory anyway.
One of my college roommates emailed me earlier today looking for the email of another college roommate. An hour ago I sent her the information, cc’ing the roommate she was looking for. I thought. But just as I hit send I realized that the cc was actually for one of our community band librarians…whose name is not remotely similar to my college roommate. So then I had to email her and tell her to ignore the totally confusing and irrelevant email and resend the original email to the appropriate party. Darn it all anyway.
My brain seems to belong to someone else. A much older and extraordinarily confused someone else. I’d like to exchange it please for the one that really belongs to me. Or at least for a newer model. This one seems to be wearing out.
I’m going to bed. I hope tomorrow makes more sense.
I have my doubts.