Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Day one



May 29, 2015.  Last day.

May 29, 2015. Last day.

Yesterday was a long and short day – the last day of work.  I’m almost afraid to say it, afraid of jinxing it.   But it was the last day of work…


People kept expecting me to be more excited than I appeared to be.  Mostly I was carefully maneuvering through a lot of goodbyes, a lot of memories, a lot of great potluck food.  Everyone else seemed more intensely excited about the event than I felt.

Mostly I just wanted the day to be done.

I don’t understand it myself.  I should be happy in the New Years blowing noisemakers, wearing a silly hat, kissing strangers, reveling in confetti kind of way.  But I felt more like the happy made it to the top of the mountain at sunrise on a solitary bike ride kind of way.

You know?

They made me a beautiful, cute card that made me laugh out loud.  And they brought in food — breakfast and lunch!  And lots of people stopped by, some people that I didn’t even know that well, to say goodbye and good luck.  Shining in the eyes of  many were their own hopes and dreams of retirement.  Some people talked about their plans, some merely smiled and hugged wistfully.

This seems interesting mama

This seems interesting mama

I am so lucky.  And I know it.  There’s just a small slice of life when  we’re young enough to plan and execute adventures, but old enough to appreciate that we get to do them.

For me that’s now.

Today is day 1 of retirement.  A college friend called me last night to offer congratulations.  She says we’re too young to be retiring, it was only last week that we all lived together in the dorm.  Wasn’t it?  She asked me what I was going to do today, day 1.  I responded that I had no idea.

And that’s the beauty of it.


Last day wearing the badge

Last day wearing the badge


Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

36 thoughts on “Day one

  1. I cryed my first retired morning. Now that sounds absolutely crazy. I love everyday


  2. Enjoy day 1! I’m glad your co-workers gave you a nice send off. They are definitely a creative bunch ~ love the card!


  3. Congrats on the retirement. I am sure each day is going to bring some amazing new things and you are going to slide right into the routine of being retired. What a lovely time. Enjoy.


  4. Free at last, you’re free at last. But, now what, you’re asking!


  5. I looked at the enlarged photo of your card – that is adorable!
    I’m looking forward to your retirement adventures!


  6. Congrats and enjoy! A beautiful send off for a new future… whatever it may entail, you have the time to figure it out. 🙂


  7. the simple thing to remember is you are retiring from work – not from life and in many way a whole new era of your life is starting – it is time to just just do what you want to do now 🙂


  8. And that is the beauty of it – make plans or follow your heart.


  9. Congratulations! I remember that day well. I walked out of the building, got into my rig, and started a whole new life. Enjoy!


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  11. Dawn–Congratulations!! You will love retirement–do what you want to do when you want to do it!!


  12. “You’re off to Great Places!
    Today is your day!
    Your mountain is waiting,
    So… get on your way!”
    But take a nap first, or just enjoy the landscape. Change is hard,doncha know, even when it’s good change.


  13. Congrats- a new journey begins! Enjoy it!


  14. Enjoy retirement. Take it in gentle sips and huge gulps. Savour the time and the taste. These are truly golden years. Faith says the card smells great btw Katie.


  15. I understand that kind of happy. It’s the kind you feel when you’ve worked hard and then been rewarded for it. That kind of happy needs time and quiet, I think, to take in. Happy day two. 🙂


  16. Congratulations, Dawn! Enjoy whatever you want to, sleep as long as you want (as long as Katie will let you, ha!), eat when you want, read, go to concerts, etc. etc. What an exciting new adventure for you (and how I love Katie on your header!!)


  17. Hello Dawn! My best wishes to you for your after-retirement life. I can’t imagine how it feels like, I’m too young to think about the retirement already. But I wonder, so many years of your incredible service and contribution, it must be quite an emotional situation on the day of retirement. However, do you already have the plans for your next phase? It would be interesting to know… Have fun and “hello” to Katie… 🙂


    • My plans are very fluid…and will probably change even more than I realize now. First of all Katie and I will go camping…and then husband and I will go visit family. And work in the yard. And do nothing at all. Read a lot of books. Nothing to exciting yet. Thanks for stopping by! I told Katie HI from you!

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