Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Musical exhale

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It was busy around here last week. A steady stream of contractors and appointments filled our days. I had a rehearsal on Tuesday night and a concert on Friday evening. Husband had places to be and people to see too.

The calendar (paper, and hanging on a bulletin board in the back hall) daily squares looked black with scribbled appointments.

The middle school after the music.

Friday was particularly bad for me. I thought I was on edge because of the pending concert. There’s always things to worry about when a concert looms. Would we come in together on that one tricky entrance. Would we all end together, or were we supposed to fade out on that other difficult piece.

Friday we had two contractors working on things inside the house and two contractors working on stuff out in the yard. None of it went exactly as planned and I was stressed.

Friday was the last day of school and the students left messages in chalk on the sidewalk outside.

Even our concert venue was causing stress. We’d been booked at the local Jr. High which has a fine auditorium and where we’ve played many times. But at the last minute the school system told us we couldn’t perform there, as the school was going to be renovated, beginning on the very night we were to play!

We told them we only needed 2 hours, but we got bumped anyway.

Me too.

Our director, a retired middle school band director, got us approved to play at the middle school’s cafetorium. Yep. A cafeteria with a stage, probably similar to where most of us ate lunch growing up. I hadn’t played in a cafeteria since I was in 7th grade.

It didn’t feel promising.

“Please stop giving us the melody.”

But our group is resilient, and in the end it wasn’t half bad. The stage was acceptable, the dusty blue velvet curtain made a pretty OK band shell, the custodians had the lunch tables put away and 200 chairs set out.

And our audience showed up.

Our intrepid leader, retired Clarkston band director, Ms. Roland.

Most importantly, after my long week, it was cathartic to sit in the middle of a group of musicians and hear the music swell around me. Of course I lost my place a couple times when I was listening instead of concentrating. Or when I was letting my neck muscles relax and forgot to count.

I bet this is from a teacher.

But last night I listened to the recording and I’m pretty sure no one will be able to tell that one third clarinet didn’t play all her notes.

Our guest conductor, Dr. Klena from Oakland University.

Our concert was titled “Three Women and a Podium” and was filled with music composed by women. I was proud to be a part of that, and I enjoyed playing under the baton of each of our three wonderfully talented conductors.

Our Associate Conductor, Ms. Scheu, Director of Bands at Oakland Christian School.

On the drive home after the concert, the sun set in a most spectacular way. I stopped in a parking lot to watch. I thought about the week and the evening and the fact that I didn’t play everything.

And God smiled good night.

And I decided I was happy with what I did play and I was very grateful that I could, finally, exhale.

Be kind to yourself too.

I hope you all find your best way to let the stress of everyday life fall off your shoulders.

And if you’re somewhere nearby some of the Clarkston Community Band musician will be playing next Saturday at the opening of the Clarkston Farmers’ Market. I hope to see you there!

School’s out, the Farmers’ Market is open – – it’s officially summer!

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

26 thoughts on “Musical exhale

  1. Hi, Dawn! Sorry for all of the stress….your Friday was maxed out for sure. It is wonderful that you were able to relax and find your center once the music started. Are you able to share the concert recording? The sunset was beautiful! I saw our first firefly last week – summer is officially here, too. 😊

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  2. And God smiled good night. That is just the loveliest.

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  3. Glad the concert went well despite all of the challenges, and glad it was a bit of a stress reliever for you.

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  4. Whew, now you can exhale! What a week you’ve had, but thankfully, everything went swimmingly. Is this the last concert of the summer, or are y’all just getting started? We’ve played two already, with several more to go before we break until Fall. How cool that you’ve combined the kids’ chalk drawings with your concert wrap up!

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  5. I still have three weeks of school left 😪 , finish line is in sight though.

    Glad you found some much needed stress relief. The last time I played in a cafetorium was 1982 😂. How sweet of the custodians to set up chairs for your audience! They are the best people (along with the cafeteria workers).

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    • Three weeks? MORE???? That’s like the end of June! I hope you don’t have to go back to school in the fall until November! 🙂 🙂 🙂

      I had never heard the term cafetorium before. But it fits!

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  6. Aww, sorry about all the stress but this was a beautiful post with all the happy things that came to fruition! Love all the chalk sayings from the kids. “Be Kind” one of my favorites, as we should be kind to ourselves as well to others. Happy summer! ❤️🎉😁

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  7. Thankfully, it is a new week and hopefully stress-free and “contractorless” – whew! I like how you interspersed the students’ and teachers’ chalk art with your recital. I love finding chalk art – some of it is very creative!

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    • This week is full too, but fewer contractors. Maybe, if I think about it, NO contractors! That would be nice. But soon there will be a whole new set of them descending on our house.

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      • I don’t envy you for that Dawn – over the years my parents, then my mom and I, redid most of this house and it is a small house, so even one contractor made for aggravation and disorder.

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  8. I love the sidewalk art/messages included with your story. And that sunset… nice!

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  9. Stress can creep in or arrive, feet-stomping! Glad all worked out in the end. Those chalk drawings were perfect to remind us of all the good stuff.

    I can’t believe how early you guys finish school. Our poor kids go all the way till June 21st!

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    • And here I was thinking it was kind of late to get out of school. But they start so early these days, weeks before Labor Day, so I think they deserve getting out sooner! A friend commented on this blog that their school doesn’t get out for 3 more weeks!!

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  10. Oh no. Ours start the Wednesday before Labour Day. College and uni start a couple weeks earlier but end earlier, though.

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  11. Congratulations for winding your way to peace in a stressful week. That’s a major accomplishment in addition to all the things you did do, even if you missed a couple of notes at the concert. I’m wondering…did you have your phone camera or your other camera to get the fun photos of the conductors? 🤔😉 I hope this week is better for you and that the contractors are on schedule!

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  12. Oh that caught me … be kind to yourself too. That was an excellent reminder, thank you!

    AND, I have a saying posted on my desk (yes, my physical desk, not my computer desktop) a saying that says “You can’t wait until life isn’t hard anymore before you decide to be happy.” That saying has helped me on many days. I sure appreciate your honesty, Dawn, and your music and you blog. 🙂

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    • It is true it’s easy to say you can’t do something because everything isn’t perfect or easy…because you’ll never get whatever done. I think you do have to just go for it, even if that’s kind of scary sometimes.

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