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Winter goldfinch and books

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In January, 2014 I was trying to read The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt. All I can remember about the book without looking at my notes is that there is a young boy who somehow is in possession of something important and it all revolves around a piece of art.

Winter goldfinches turn green with lingering hints of yellow, the hope for summer’s return.

But looking back at Goodreads, reading my ‘review’ (I honestly never think of my notes as any kind of review) I remember more.

The stink-eye from the bird in the middle says he doesn’t appreciate being photographed.

A thirteen year old boy and his mother are visiting the Metropolitan Museum of Art when a bomb explodes, killing his mother. In the chaos someone directs the boy to steal an important piece of art, titled The Goldfinch.

Something startles them and they fly for safety.

The story goes on from there, on and on for about 800 pages. My review noted the often beautiful writing but the hopelessness of wading through so many pages of it. I was determined, it says in my review, not to let the book beat me.

And now, after all that, I don’t even remember how it ended.

This little dark-eyed junco takes the opportunity to grab a quick lunch.

Today, more than 10 years later, I’m reading Fredrik Backman’s My Friends. Mr. Backman also wrote A Man called Ove which I loved and remember almost every bit of.

The sun comes out and everybody settles in for a friendly meal.

I expected to have a similar warm and tearfully emotional experience with this book, but so far I am not having those feelings…and I am struggling to finish it. I’m half way through and I’m determined not to let the book beat me.

The book seems to be two stories, one the story of eighteen year old Louisa who has aged out of the foster system and run away, and the story of four friends, one of whom grew up to be a famous artist, and their story of a summer decades ago, depicted in a very famous, very expensive painting.

Some fuzzy girl in the house barks at her birds.

Now one of those four friends has run into Louisa on her flight from her old life. He might be running away too. He has with him the ashes of the artist and the painting itself. It happens to be Louisa’s favorite painting, one she came to town to see.

Fly away.

That’s as much as I know at this point. Louisa and the artist’s friend are on a train going somewhere. The friend said the artist wanted Louisa to have the million dollar painting. (The artist and Louisa met briefly in an alley where she was spray painting a mural on the back of a building. He said she was his kind of person.)

It has occurred to me that young people and famous pieces of art might be a theme.

They ‘hide’ in the top of the nearby beech tree until they think it’s safe.

Which reminds me of another book, written by a friend of mine, Karen Mulvahill. Her book, The Lost Woman is the story of Nicole who’s parents were each rounded up by the Nazis during WWII. Nicole’s father owned an art gallery and Nicole worked there as a young woman. After it was taken over by members of the Nazi party she managed to get hired to work there again.

And then they’re right back to eating.

She did that so that she could protect as much art as possible. But at what cost? At the beginning of the story she is an old woman, hiring a man named Robert to find and return some of the art that was stolen.

The book, beautifully written, is the story of Robert and Nicole and how they came to be in the places they find themselves.

It begins to snow again and the goldfinch makes peace with the cardinal who also wants lunch.

So here you have three books and three sets of young people absorbed in art. Three different stories threaded together with images of my winter goldfinches who, of course, have their own stories to tell.

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

27 thoughts on “Winter goldfinch and books

  1. Hey! I’m reading That Bachman book right now, too! I like it a lot and I’m where they’re just about to get on the train. I don’t keep reviews of books, but I collect quotes from them. this book makes me smile, even in the sad parts.

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  2. I had picked up The Goldfinch at a book sale years ago. The sheer size of it was daunting, but I had heard a lot about this book, so… Fast forward to years later and the book was still in my bookcase. Unread. I donated it. Eight hundred pages was a page too far for me.

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    • I have several silly rules about reading. One is if I can’t get into it within 100 pages I give myself permission to stop. The other is I can’t start a new book until I’m done with the one I’m ‘reading.’ This rule is especially silly as I’ve been stuck on a book for weeks and don’t allow myself to start something else. I realize my rules are contradicting. I guess that’s why they’re silly rules.

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      • Not a silly rule! I don’t get how some people have 3-4 books going at one time. I can’t do that. Only one at a time for me. I hadn’t even started The Goldfinch, Dawn. I just kept on looking at it and then just finally gave up.

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  3. Great action shots, Dawn! I read Goldfinch years ago and found it a bit intense, but a good read.

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  4. How absolutely beautiful

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  5. Beautiful. Its a pleasure to observe them in detail…

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  6. The longest book I ever read was “The Far Pavilions” by M.M. Kaye and I just looked it up – 960 pages. It was for school and I thought I’d never finish it and probably did with the help of Cliff’s Notes. I have never read “The Goldfinch” but I look your Goldfinches and Junco at the feeder. They are fueling up for tomorrow’s bitter cold and the rest of this Winter that won’t quit. That one bird sure is giving you the stink eye. 🙂

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  7. “like” not “look” … saw it as it sent … sigh.

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  8. I didn’t make it through the Goldfinch but I adored My Friends, and felt terrible when the book was over and I couldn’t spend any more time with all those people. But there were folks in my book group who really struggled with the back and forth and such until it comes together more at the end.

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  9. I love your birds! I guess I’m going to have to try taking photos out of my windows, too — it’s far too bitterly cold and snowy to trudge around outdoors. I’ve read several of Backman’s books and enjoyed most of them. Somehow, I’ve missed My Friends. I find it interesting how many books stay with you and how many — even despite their length and how much time you spend with them — vanish like mist.

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    • You’d be surprised how well shooting a camera out the window works. Sometimes you can sneak up on them a bit too, unless certain fuzzy members of your household figure out what you’re doing and fling themselves at the window ahead of you.

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  10. The older I get, the less I try to wade through a book, even one that is highly recommended. If it isn’t working for me, it isn’t working. I put it aside and move on. And yet, even when something really does speak to me, it still might mean I spent a lot of time reading it … listening to it, to the author, to the story.

    I just started “The River Has Roots” by Amal El-Mohtar. It’s a youth book, not a little kids book. It’s fantastic. She’s Canadian. It’s truly stretching my mind and my heart.

    Love your photos. 🙂 Always. They speak to me.

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    • I know what you’re saying, it seems a waste of time, but often I think there must be SOME reason everybody likes this book and I hope to find it. I fail most of the time. I should learn that lesson.

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  11. If a book isn’t making me happy to pick it up and continue reading, I have no qualms about “letting it beat me”. I even created my own shelf on Good Reads that I titled “Couldn’t be bothered to finish”. I read for enjoyment, and if I’m not enjoying, my attitude is “nope, not worth my time.”

    Love all the goldfinch photos!

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  12. I finished The Goldfinch early this year. As an audiobook, it was a good deal, as it was very long; as a Pulitzer Prize winner, it seemed like a good bet. The writing was, in fact, wonderful. The plot kept me desperately wanting to find out how it resolved. The length, in this case, was not a bonus. I had a terrible anxiety, all the way through, wondering how it would resolve itself. So many characters seemed like they could be villains. I was constantly worried for the characters that were flawed, but likeable. What a relief to have it all resolved…and to finally finish! I determined to look for lighter reading this year! And, now that you mention it, I also cannot remember how it ended!

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    • Sad after all that emotional investment and time that we put in we can’t remember how it turned out. I might have been too exhausted at the time to notice. I feel like I should go to the library and read the last chapter again.

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