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In search of cinnamon

An hour north of me is another magical place. I keep track of it on Facebook, where people, dedicated to photographing the wonders there post images and after periods of time away I am always itching to go back and see for myself.

I always try to arrive before sunrise, to witness the Shiawasee National Wildlife Refuge waking up. Sometimes it’s very noisy, but last Friday it was quiet, no flocks of cranes flying over, just some little birds and a couple swans.

Waiting for sunrise.

But the moon was coming up and that kept me company as I waited for daylight. I was there to see the cinnamon teal I’d been hearing about. A bird that doesn’t frequent our part of the country had been sighted regularly, in a pond right next to the parking lot.

Absolutely beautiful moonrise, big and golden, it came up just ahead of the sun.

Just as the sun rose a car roared into the parking lot, and a woman, dressed in waders and lugging a camera with a huge lens eased her way into the water beneath the viewing platform. I was still in the car.

Ummmm….what would this angle afford that standing on the viewing platform wouldn’t?

As the light brightened I figured if she was that prepared I didn’t want to disturb her or any potential shots, and I avoided the viewing platform in favor of the parking lot itself. And guess what? The cinnamon teal was there, with his lady friend.

Yep he’s out there, and not that far away from where the woman was standing.

But the light was still low and I was far away. Still…I have proof that I saw him and that was enough for me. I left her to her project and started down the road to the trails, intent on what other wonders I could see.

He really was beautiful.

There was this female merganser swimming all by herself in the ditch along the road. I wondered where her mate was.

Sometimes a girl just needs some alone time.

And this killdeer was be-bopping along in the wet grasses. He didn’t really want his picture taken but I got what I could.

If I hide behind this piece of grass she won’t see me.

Mostly I was just happy to be out there in the golden early morning light. But I kept thinking about that teal…and when another car pulled in and a guy clompped his way up the viewing platform I figured I had as much right to be there as either of them and I walked back, tiptoed up the viewing platform and saw that the teal, and his lady were nowhere to be found.

She’s still under there, and he’s stomping around up top. People…sigh…

I wasn’t surprised, with all the commotion. So I took a couple pictures and walked on back down the road. I was kind of disappointed that I didn’t have a clear shot of the teal. But I had a couple of tree swallows dive bomb me. They were so fast I didn’t get a good focus, but it was kind of cool.

People are kind of overbearing, don’t you think Harvey?

I resigned myself to the fact I might only get images of common birds, like robins who seems to pose for me as if to say they were tired of being overlooked.

Say lady! I’m sort of cinnamon colored!

And there was this little bird, that was cute, but I couldn’t tell in the low light what he or she was. I figured a sparrow and I wasn’t too excited. When I got home and began to process the photos I realized it was a phoebe with nesting material! What a cutie! But at the time I was feeling sort of sad.

I know I just look like a little brown bird, lady, but I’m really cute!

I trucked on, stopping when I heard something, looking for opportunities. I talked to a birder who was walking behind me for quite awhile. He said he was out there to see deer and eagles. I assured him he’d see eagles near the back of the trail, and there had been deer earlier, by the parking lot.

What’s that over there?

Just after he left me I noticed these guys in a field to my left. I wonder if the birder noticed them at all.

Shhhhh, don’t tell him.

I moved slowly down the path. If there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s that when I’m walking I don’t see much, but the wildlife sees me. I’ve missed lots of opportunities by moving around too much. And by changing lenses.

No wildlife here. I just liked the colors.

I almost always think I have the wrong lens, and plenty of times on this walk I wished I didn’t have my long lens on the camera, but this hike I was determined to use one lens and stop often.

In the end I think it worked out.

Not in focus, but he was flying directly at my lens, so I just instinctively pushed the shutter. Kind of cool.

I noticed this little bird hopping along a big limb. Turns out, though I couldn’t tell at the time, that it’s a cute little junco. You can tell it from the phoebe by it’s pinkish bill. They should be migrating further north any time now.

He definitely wanted his picture taken.

As I moved closer to the back of the trail I concentrated more on the beautiful reflections in the still water.

Not everything beautiful here comes with wings or fur.

And the angles of the light and trees as another birder passes me looking for anything interesting.

What’s that up there?

About then I heard what I thought was a woodpecker right above my head. Well darn it, I thought, so far I haven’t gotten images of much of anything…where IS this woodpecker? And then…there he was.

Not a hairy woodpecker.

I thought maybe he was a hairy woodpecker, he was bigger than a downy, but it was hard to tell. Guess what? When I got home, and after looking at some other photographers’ work, people out there the same day, it turns out this is a yellow bellied sap sucker! I don’t think I’ve ever seen one before. Or if I have, I didn’t realize what it was.

So exciting. Still, while I was out there I didn’t know what I had and I was still pretty discouraged. I trudged on, out to the eagle’s nest. I figured I’d at least see an eagle or two or three…and yes, way off in the distance, in a massive nest was one eagle, mostly cleaning the nest with his or her back to me. Hardly anything to look at.

Yep, there’s an eagle in there, tending to the nest.

But there’s a bench out there and I was tired so I sat and watched the swans chase each other around in the water just past the eagle’s nest.

Lots of angst, all in the name of love.

There seemed to be quite a rivalry going on. The light was still low and they were far away and I was having the hardest time getting a focus, but I tried.

And in between the swan shots I’d check the eagle. Finally I could see the adult eagle more clearly and I got the best shot I could.

Well that’s a better image.

Then I wandered on, past the dueling swans…

Winner, winner, chicken dinner. Oh wait…that doesn’t apply here.

…where I met another birder coming the other way. He told me that there were lots of little birds on the next section of trail. Kinglets, thrush, swamp sparrows, towhees, just lots of little birds.

He says he lives just down the road and does this walk almost every day. Lucky guy.

Great I thought, I’m having trouble getting BIG birds in focus, and I’ve never been very good at getting the littles. Those guys never hold still.

Plus, did I tell you that Thursday evening my husband and I, with the help of a neighbor and his tractor with a frontend loader, moved 30 yards of mulch? I was a little sore and a lot tired and I was double thinking even being out at the Refuge, much less walking the four mile loop. Especially when all I had so far was a bunch of out of focus bird shots.

Kinda like this one.

Or so I thought.

So I trudged on along the water, then turned to head back south for the last mile and a half to the car. I was starving. My back was tired. My eyes hurt from straining while looking through the viewfinder.

But there was a mama goose, all curled up on her nest. How pretty. How peaceful.

I’m watching you lady.

And there, up ahead was a bench. And I had an apple and a bottle of water in my camera backpack. I gratefully slid the backpack off and sat down. The camera sat on the bench beside me, backpack at my feet and I munched the best ever apple and contemplated my day.

No matter what it was still spring and the sky was blue and the trees were in bloom and the birds were singing.

I was still glad to be out there, but I was tired. I didn’t really think I’d see any little birds. I was pretty unhappy with the cinnamon teal image, the eagle image, the combating swan images. I didn’t know I had a phoebe or a junco or anything else.

But the apple tasted really, really good.

I could always call them artsy-fartsy images….right?

And the blue sky and warm sun made me smile too. Would it be enough, just sitting in this beautiful place? Or would I ultimately be disappointed by my hike through a Michigan wonderland?

These guys were interesting.

You, dear readers, will have to wait and see.

Because this is already way too long.

Don’t worry, she’ll be back!