Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Still looking


I should have been driving home from Alabama with Katie-girl this week, but instead I flew home on Monday evening and met with my primary care physician on Tuesday. My husband, who had driven home a few days earlier, flew back to Alabama on Sunday to get me to the Atlanta airport and drive the princess home.

Toys at the beach were settling in for the night.

My Tuesday appointment was filled with questions and few answers. But he took me seriously, as I knew he would, and got me into a cardiologist’s office on Thursday when normally it would be weeks before I’d be seen.

The cardiologist took me seriously too, and arranged for me to go to the emergency room of the local hospital, armed with a list of tests he wanted. The emergency room hopped to attention when I arrived.

Only a few people were still in the water as the sun set.

More tests, some repeats of things I had done in Alabama, others more detailed and intense were done. I spent seven hours in a small room in emergency, when not being wheeled to tests on other floors.

They gave me good pain drugs too, so I was happy and comfortable. I read an entire book. I think.

But in the end there were no answers. No reason why my back and chest hurt when I’m active. I’m comfortable when I’m resting on the sofa, or sleeping overnight. But getting up and dressed, going to the grocery store, even walking to the end of the driveway still bring on the pain.

It was a pretty evening.

Making a simple dinner tonight made me hunch over the sink and gasp.

So. The local doctors, and I saw 5 of them on Thursday, think I should try an over the counter ibuprofin and see what happens. So far that hasn’t done much of anything at all.

But we’ll see.

Perhaps the bird had the best view.

(PS: Images are of a sunset over a local lake, on an evening when I was feeling sad, a few days before my husband and dog made it back home safe and sound. I’m sure Katie will have a lot to say soon. She’s resting up now for an early morning wake-up call.)

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

30 thoughts on “Still looking

  1. I’m sorry you are going through this pain with no answers. Have they done any imaging of your spine….could it be disc? Did they look at that kind of thing, or a different kind of paIn.
    If they suggested ibuprofen do they think there is inflammation. I wonder what they didn’t look at. That seems to sometimes lead to more questions and answers.
    Wishing you the best.

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    • I meant to say “is it a different kind of pain than what a spinal issue would show.”


      • They seem to think it’s some sort of muscular or skeletal pain…like a strain so they’re suggesting ibuprofen to see if that helps. I don’t see any real help taking Advill…but maybe it will take time.

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        • That seems to make sense. When you said ibuprofen that is what alerted me. I had a terrible pain down my arm last week. Whole arm went numb. I had a massage and she worked on some lumps in my back. Pain went away.

          Maybe some relaxing massages are called for! And stop picking up Katie! Hope you are feeling better soon. You had everyone worried.

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  2. Oh Dawn–it is at times like these that you want those tests to not come back so terrific. Ibuprofen? I so wish that was the fix for you. I hope they find something soon and I hope the pain is not too terrible–making you gasp….I cannot imagine….

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    • The good news is that the pain is more manageable today. It’s still back there but not so overwhelming now. It could well just be a sprain from picking Katie up. Hard to say.


  3. This is distressing news, Dawn. Our bodies are delicate ecosystems and sometimes it takes a while to figure out what the disruptor is. I’m glad you’re all together again and that you’re home.


  4. So sorry to hear about your pain, Dawn, and the inconclusive results. That can be so frustrating. I had pain in my ribs a couple summers back that lasted a couple of months. It was diagnosed as a tear or inflammation in the tissue between the ribs. Hope someone can find a diagnosis for you. It’s been helpful for me to finally have a diagnosis after four months of the recent discomfort, although things aren’t still great. Take care.


  5. Dawn, your symptoms are very worrisome. We all want this diagnosed — and you back to normal asap! xxxooo


  6. Whatever you do, DON’T go browsing the Internet hoping to self-diagnose — there can be a lot of misinformation out there, leading to unnecessary fear and worry. Trust your body; trust your doctors who know you. You’ll rest easier when you rule out the awful stuff. In the meantime, try to get some rest and let Nurse Katie heal you back. Doggins always know when we need some TLC and most are eager to provide it!


  7. The pain persisting is troublesome, not to mention your discomfort and the stress it causes for you. Those undiagnosed health issues arre more worrisom than those that are diagnosed, I think, and sometimes the cause is good at hiding itsef. I hope it’s resolved soon – eithet by going away or diagnosis. Hugs – but not tight hugs, because that would probably hurt.


  8. Worrisome and frustrating for sure, not to mention the main thing: Painful. Hoping for useful info for you soon; c’mon, docs!


  9. I’m sorry youre not feeling well, and that you dont really know why. That must be frustrating and scary. Hope you have some relief or answers soon.


  10. So sorry you haven’t gotten answers Dawn. Did they x ray your ribs? I hope whatever it is resolves soon, or you at least get relief from the pain.


  11. I am so sorry you haven’t gotten any concrete answers but it seems like they ruled a lot of things out which is good. And they took you seriously. The pain must be difficult to deal with from the sounds of it and I hope you find some relief and answers sooner rather than later. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.


  12. Dawn, could Your Pain have come from water skiing? Maybe You pulled a muscle! God Bless!


    • I did ski once…but didn’t even have the normal strain pain from that. I think it’s from picking up Katie to carry her up the stairs. She goes down but won’t go up. We slept in the basement. One day I had 28 stairs on my fitbit and almost all of them were carrying her up!


  13. Hi Dawn
    Just catching up with your troubles and am so sorry you are in pain. I had something similar a coupe years ago – turned out I had a rib out of joint. Took a chiropractor to find it and pop back in. May not be your problem but it does not really show up on an xray and the radiating pain (for me) had me convinced I was having heart attack. One ER doc labeled me a hypochondriac and treated me so badly I was in tears.
    Sending my beat thoughts to you,


    • Hey Tamra! I was lucky in my ER doctors…3 at the first ER, 3 at the second ER. All were female! All took me seriously. None of them could figure out what was causing the pain though. 😦


  14. Your images are beautiful. I hope the pain is gone by now and that whatever it is has resolved itself. If not, sending healing wishes your way.


    • Well, I felt a lot better yesterday. Then today I went to 2 grocery stores and spent the day in the kitchen and now the pain in my back is really bad. Sigh. So I have to not do so much. I’m going camping on Friday and Saturday. That might be problematic. We’ll see.


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