Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

What now?


I used to knit – when I was a kid I belonged to a knitting 4-H club. Once a week mom drove me to this lady’s house. I remember where it was and that her name was Marie Coddington, but I don’t really remember any of the other girls. I think we knit for an hour, and she helped us with any problems we had. Every year I entered a sweater in the 4-H fair. I still have them, in a container in the basement.

And then, when I lived in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan as a young, just out of college worker bee, a woman I worked with taught me how to crochet. It was faster than knitting and I made a lot of afghans.

I liked to work on the ones that were made all in one piece – as they got larger they kept me warm in my upstairs drafty flat during the long winters. I also liked that they kept my hands busy making it more difficult to snack. You could call it the crochet diet.

It worked.

This past winter I got sort of antsy, and wished I had something to knit. A FB friend knits a lot and I asked her for ideas. She sent me a couple of links to patterns, and I chose a shawl with sections of light airy loops between sections of the garter stitch, the easiest stitch there is and the first one you’re taught as a beginner.

Then I found a local yarn store and fell in love with something they called ‘crazy yarn,’ skeins of yarn that the manufacturer spun together using somewhat relatable remnants. No telling what colors in what amounts would be inside that skein!

It was fun watching the colors escape and meld together into a shawl. I finished it last night.

And now I don’t have a project to keep my hands busy on these cool spring evenings. No way to avoid the siren call of snacks in the cupboard as I sit inside respecting the call for social distancing.

And no yarn store open as far as the eye can see either.

My hands miss their busywork. I need to find something else to start and an online source for materials. I’ve found out that shawls are a “thing,” and some are easy to do. Maybe I’ll do another.

Anyone have suggestions?

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

33 thoughts on “What now?

  1. So lovely! Shawls are just perfect for this time of year.


  2. Yours turned out so pretty. I do like the loop sections. The neighbor who lived behind us in NJ was a knitter and she taught me. I’d bring over my needles when I would babysit for her kids. But I never kept it up.


  3. I could never knit, but I could crochet. Your shawl is pretty. How cool that you’re part of a trend and didn’t even know it.


  4. Hey Dawn, if you want to keep your fingers busy by making masks; here is a link for the doctor who’s wife is making masks from  HEPA vacuum cleaner  bags.  
    A Doctor Explains How to Make the Safest Face Mask    


  5. My photography keeps me busy, and I am so lucky that I can walk out the door and still go for a walk/ hike. I have no suggestion for hobbies. Lol. I use to do bead work, but cant see well enough for that anymore.


  6. Very pretty, the colors are perfect together.


  7. Beautiful shawl. My favorite colors. I was loom knitting some hats for a group who takes them to kids in Mexico just across the border (but not presently) . But using the loom and needle bothered my wrist and my thumb so I’m now without a hands project too.
    Be safe.


  8. That is a beautiful shawl. I’ve never heard of crazy yarn. I’d love to give it a try with something, but I’ve forgotten how to knit. I have not forgotten how to crochet, but I’ve got enough crocheted stuff around here (some from my mother who was quite good at it, some from M’s grandmother who was also quite good at it, and some things I made even though I’m not quite as good as they were). Knitting was something I learned a few years ago and then promptly forgot after making two scarves.


  9. I was in 4-H too… sewing and cooking, not knitting. Fair time was my favorite!


    • Fair time was one of my favorites too. Still is. We have our county fair in the town I live in and every few years we go up there to check it out. Haven’t ridden any of the rides except the Ferris wheel (too old to be throwing up in front of people) but enjoy the cows and pigs and chickens and rabbits and of course the sewing, knitting, food exhibits the kids do.


  10. Hi, Dawn – I greatly admire anyone who can knit, crochet, sew or quilt. Somehow I missed those genes.
    “Siren call of snacks!” I absolutely love that expression.
    Hope you are doing well.


  11. Never learned to knit, crochet or sew. Some of my sisters got that gene from our mum and are really crafty.


    • My mom tried to teach me to sew but it wasn’t my thing. Too hard to tear out mistakes! She did knitting and I learned crochet years later. My mom was real crafty too, I’m less so, but I can do a few things.


  12. My college roommate taught me to crochet … something my late grandma was expert at. I loved having something to do with my hands and having something pretty to enjoy afterward. I haven’t done it in years. I guess it’s been replaced with beading jewelry and adult coloring. Oh, and flute practice, ha! If you’re interested, go here ( and download something free to color. Instant relaxation!


  13. I stitch felt. I’ve made eggs, hearts, flowers and cacti. I’m now working on strawberries.
    I love editing pictures! Keeps me busy for hours!
    I do love the small knitted wash clothes and display them in my kitchen on a glass pedestal. Hope you can find something to make!


  14. Dawn, call Sally at Dolls and More in Northport. You probably know that her MUCH, MUCH “MORE” includes all kinds of yarn! She is at the shop most days, working on projects, though not open for through-the-door business. Anyway, I’m sure she would be happy to help you out! Crochet diet — I love that!


  15. What a pretty shawl 🙂 – did you know that many yarn stores, even Michael’s sell yarn on-line and shipped directly to you? Just a thought.


  16. Annies design has some free shawl patterns, the shawl I did recently is from her…it is called Tendril. There are many free patterns online. Yarn is available online too…I have a stash to use. I belong to a facebook group called Bevs County Cottage and they have all kinds of charity projects:) I like the colors of your shawl:)


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