Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

The muse is missing – random thoughts

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I haven’t felt photographically inspired for a long time. Except for my birds, mostly here at home, I haven’t felt like following my muse. It all just felt like too much work and my world right now is feeling pretty unsettled with no room for wandering around with a camera.

But yesterday a storm front sent clouds racing across the sky. I happened to be out running a short errand when I noticed the sky and for the first time in a long time I felt a spark.

Just a small spark, but for a moment I thought about turning around and grabbing the camera and heading out to look for interesting moments. Something lightened in my chest. And even though I knew I couldn’t take off exploring right then, I knew that someday I could. On the way home I stopped and grabbed a quick shot, using my phone, of our local nursery under the cloudy sky. It felt good.

And then this morning, at 6 a.m. I was walking in the front yard while Penny was looking for her perfect spot, when I noticed the half moon getting ready to set.

And I realized that there were 4 humans up there, closer to the moon than to earth. I watched the moon for awhile, feeling an excitement that I haven’t felt since we explored the moon decades ago when I was a kid.

I wasn’t so excited that I went and got my good camera and the tripod, that still seems like too much work, but I thought about it. My photography is gaining energy, and someday, maybe soon, I’ll be exploring with the camera again.

In the meantime the camera on the phone is pretty great, and the backyard isn’t bad either.

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

26 thoughts on “The muse is missing – random thoughts

  1. I know where you are… sometimes I have so many ideas of what to write racing through my mind that I can’t pick and other times I am dumbfounded for a topic… your photos are epic and you’ll find your muse. Peace and be patient with yourself.

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    • I’ve been blogging for years. It started out as a place to put my thoughts about going back to grad school at 50, and attending UM where my parents went to school, and in fact my classes were in the same building my dad was in back in the 50s. Then after I graduated it morphed into whatever you’d say it is now.

      But there are things going on here that can’t be in the blog and that take up most of my day, and all of my emotions…so it’s hard to focus on stuff that is less important, yet I do need the creative outlet to relieve stress…so it’s sometimes hard to know what to do.

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  2. Glad you’re finding your way back. Take your time.

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  3. Losing the muse is hard. Sometimes finding your way back is even harder. It’ll kick back in, Dawn. I do like ‘Space Alien Penny’ though!

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  4. I think, all things considered, you did fabulously!

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  5. Moonshots are fabulous!

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  6. I’ve been there too, the ebb and flow of photography, of blogging. I’ll do what you did- a sky will inspire, a sunrise or sunset. Love Penny in the foreground of that photo.

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  7. Life gets in the way sometimes and for me, the best way to deal with it is to sit back, do what I can and want to do, and let it pass. The light will shine again one day.

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  8. Hobbies and interests seem to ebb and flow, just like the cycles of the moon. 🌙🌛🌜🌝

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  9. I’m suffering through the same thing! In fact, it’s been a few weeks since I’ve messed with my blog — and even the Monk hasn’t had a thing to say! Oh, well, your starting to get back in the groove gives me hope that this gloominess will depart from my door, too. Maybe my muse is waiting for Spring sunshine and warmth??

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  10. So glad to read the spark is coming back. That first moon photo is a wowsah! I, too, have been enthralled by Artemis’s journey, where the crew is going boldly forth beyond any distance a human has travelled. Inspiring, especially with all that’s been going on right now in this country.

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  11. I’ve gone through those same periods sans-motivation. It sounds like the spark is beginning to build. My advice is to not rush it, let it find its way back to you (cause it will).

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  12. Well Dawn, you always take great night-time shots and these moon shots are great as well. It is pretty incredible to think about the astronauts up there also taking moon shots, albeit a tad closer to that subject and each looking out of their own window. 🙂

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  13. Oh that moon! Yes, me too, not too much interest these days in finding interesting things, partly because of the news these days, but also truthfully getting older isn’t always so much fun. And yet, there is inspiration. I attend a “chair exercise” group in my community twice a week. I’m perfectly healthy, but I need the human contact and community. We have a coffee hour afterwards, some folks eat the treats, most of us just have a cup of coffee, but we sit and talk and share stories of our lives. As a result I’ve signed up to take a wood-carving class a local school. Looking into taking tenor recorder lessons. Gotta find ways to keep ourselves sparked up. That moon, that was gorgeous!!

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    • So many interesting things to explore and learn when you’re retired and finally have the time. People used to ask me what I’d do after I retired and I always told them I had a list of stuff, and not one of them had the word mortgage in their titles.

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