Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

It’s been 4 years

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Penny here. Mom says I can write this post because she’s feeling kind of emotional and she figures I can be more objective because I never met Katie-girl. Though I talk to her all the time.

Katie at her park spring 2015

Mom says today is the fourth anniversary of Katie crossing the bridge. She says she will remember every second of that day forever. I, being the kind and empathetic dog that I am, let her sit in her feelings as much as she wants, but especially today.

Penny at Katie’s park spring 2026

I don’t remind her that she has me to help her get through the day. I just sit on her feet and nap, waiting for her to come around.

Take your time, mom. I’ll be right here.

She was reflective earlier this week too, when she took me for a long walk at one of Katie’s favorite places, Holly Recreation. We walked on the trail that Katie used to explore. Mom moved slowly and seemed to be off in some other place a lot of the time.

She says she was remembering other walks in other times.

Who’s prettier, mom? Me or this wild geranium?

Me? I just went with the flow. Any time I can be out in the woods with my mom is a good time if you ask me. Even if she is thinking about some other sheltie.

Time sure does fly.

Mom and I, we had a real good time bonding over Katie memories while wandering on Katie’s trail. I know it’s not about me all the time. But it is about me a lot of the time! I am very good at reminding mom that I came along, sent by Katie, to help mend a hole in her and daddy’s hearts.

Bet I can make you smile, mom!

I’d like to think, without sounding boastful, that I do a pretty good job of it.

I jumped over this log 4 times before mom even got her phone out to take a picture.

So today mom and daddy will think about their Katie-girl and I will thoughtfully try to be a good girl and let them. Tomorrow all bets are off on the being a good girl thing.

Cause tomorrow it’s all about me!

You’re gonna have to carry me over this one, mom!

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

22 thoughts on “It’s been 4 years

  1. Dawn, I was thinking about you and Katie-girl this week. Jeff and I went tent camping in Letchworth park (which I added to my bucket list after seeing your photos years ago) and brought Chewy along. I thought about the times you and Katie camped, even setting the tent up in your own backyard.

    Chewy loved it, and even though he was completely exhausted, living outside for a few days seemed to be one of the greatest experiences I have ever given him. I’m sure Katie felt the same way.

    I know you have happy, beautiful memories of Princess Katie, but sometimes those tears sneak up on us, don’t they? These dogs sure do wrap themselves around our hearts.

    Penny, you are the comic (and sometimes exasperating) relief your parents need when those tears come. You’re the best!

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    • That sounds wonderful, Sara! Bruce and I visited Letchworth one year, that time we were out vacationing near you. I only knew about that park because another blogger who did photography often showed his work from there! See how our worlds expanded because of blogs? 🙂

      I’m glad Chewy enjoyed camping. Katie loved it so much. When I had the tent set up in the backyard she’d wait by the backdoor when it started to get dark asking to go out and when I took her she’d pull me to the tent, prancing all the way. She was so happy sleeping outside.

      Penny is another dog completely. She has made it through an entire night only once so far. And I’ve only tried 3x this season. She’s a handful and noise sensitive. Maybe when she’s older she’ll like it more. I can’t imagine her at a real campground with those noises added into regular night noises!

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  2. I often remember the animals who were dear to me. They don’t live long enough. Penny, no doubt you are a great comfort. Love the picture of you leaping over a log.

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    • Penny keeps us so busy we don’t have time to feel sad! Plus she’s a snuggler if we do feel a bit down. She wants to sit right on top of some part of a person’s body at all times…but especially if we’re sniffling. She also LOVES to jump!

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  3. Hi, Dawn. Sending love and gentle hugs to you and your husband. I know what it is like to be reminded of the painful loss of a beloved four-legged family member. They are always close in our hearts. ❤️

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  4. Penny, you’re a good girl for giving your mom and dad time and space to grieve. You precious pups become our entire world for such a short time, and it’s not easy letting you cross the Bridge when that time comes. Dawn, I’m sorry this is a sad anniversary for you (golly, has it really been four whole years now??). One new pup never can fully fill the pawprints of the pups that pass, but I know Penny is trying her hardest — and who could resist that adorable face?!?

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  5. Good girl, Penny, they’re lucky to have such a sweet presence to get them through this day. 💕 🙏🏼

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  6. Penny, that’s nice you are taking the reins from Mom to write this post. It is noble of you to write about your predecessor – there is not a jealous bone in your body. I have gotten to know you, but unfortunately was not following your Mom’s posts when she had Katie.

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  7. Good job, Penny, to help your mom through her sorrow of losing Katie! She loves you Penny and you are a bright spot in her life. I’m sorry, Dawn, and know how you feel after hearing Aero and Gideon’s brother Woody, passed on two weeks ago. The trio’s spirits run free in Heaven and no doubt have encountered Katie and all the sweet pets that met them there. Hug that Penny girl for me. And woofs from my Brodie!

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  8. WOW. Penny, I am glad you were there to help your momma and daddy through that day. Penny, you continue to be yourself and make new memories with your momma and daddy. Be good. Peace.

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  9. Penny you are a sweet and thoughtful girl to allow Mom to be deep in her thoughts about Katie. Please give Mom lots of kisses from us and hugs too

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  10. Sending your mama hugs and love, Penny. I tried to comment on this from up on the mountain, but WordPress wasn’t allowing it for some reason. Glitchy day, I guess. I’m so glad your mom has you to help her with the grief, Penny. ♥

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