Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Starlit solace

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I went on a little adventure this week, two nights spent near Lake Michigan shooting images of the Milky Way. It didn’t escape my attention that I went without my girl. Or that I went in part because it was too hard to be here without her.

And it worked. For two glorious nights I stood in silky sand with my lens pointed at the sky and I was happy.

Last night, after I was finished shooting while waiting for my photographer friend to finish her work, I sat alone in the sand, gazed up at the Big Dipper and talked to my dad, a warm breeze drying the tears on my face.

Pt. Betsie lighthouse on a warm summer night.

Hey Dad. I know you and Mom never met Katie but she’s up there now. Take care of her for me, will you? She might be scared to be so far away from her mama and daddy. I don’t want her to be scared, so please reassure her. And she likes her shoulders to be massaged. If you could do that for me, I’d appreciate it.

Tell her we love her, and miss her, and we’ll see her again someday.

PS: I’ll have more images to show you from the past two nights once I get them all sorted. It was pretty amazing, millions of stars crowding the sky, the Milky Way glowing.

I felt lucky to be there. Even without my girl.

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

37 thoughts on “Starlit solace

  1. I was visiting a long ago good friend who I recently reconnected with after 15-17 years – but doesn’t seem as if we missed a beat when I saw some of your Friday images hit last evening – I showed him – and he echoed my WOW –

    Despite the ‘here’ pain, it has to be comforting to picture NAPK with the others not with you anymore –

    Glad you got the card!

    H&K&W,
    Willow and Phyll

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  2. So sad, heartbreaking, and yet…

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  3. Oh yes sad, “and yet” as trentpmcd says … it also brings a smile. Funny how sometimes crying does that. Love.

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  4. That Point Betsie is the most beautiful I’ve ever seen. Katie is proud of you.

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    • thank you. It was a beautiful night to be out. Thursday night we were out there, but stayed on the beach. The wind was blowing fiercely and we didn’t think it prudent to climb around the lighthouse in the dark. But Friday night it was a soft summer night, warm, but a little breeze to keep the bugs away. We started out at Esch Beach and then went back to Pt. Betsie. Both nights were were out all night. I might be too old for this! LOL.

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  5. I am still not over losing our Norman and he left us in February. I know too well how you feel. I am so sorry you lost Katie.

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  6. I’m happy you had your visit with the lake and the stars, and Point Betsie. Healing takes time. Your photo is absolutely stupendous! I love love love it!

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  7. What a gorgeous photo! I’m glad you found some “happy” mixed in with your tears.

    I like thinking of Katie being with your parents. I’m sure they are spoiling her, as a princess deserves.

    Looking forward to seeing more of your photos.

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    • I like that she’s not alone. She has your Misty and Ludo and Maizie and Morgan and Reilly and Denny and Norwood and Ricky and probably more there with her. Gotta be a giant sheltie party! But I also like to think that mom and dad, and my in-laws are with her too. Even Imogene will be there, and you KNOW she knows all about treating a sheltie-girl like a princess.

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  8. Grief can eat you alive and leave you hollow. It’s hard work to grieve in a healthy manner. I’m happy to hear that you’re forcing yourself to do self care and taking yourself on an adventure. Katie-girl was one of the stars you were looking up at. See, she was there after all.

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    • I’m taking advantage of any adventure I can find just to keep busy. And because I love adventure. I know she was there with me….she loved adventures too. If she were younger she’d have loved being out on that beach all night with her mama.

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  9. Your image is breathtaking, Dawn. It’s lovely that you “finished” before your friend and were able to take your moment like that. So happy you are forging ahead.

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  10. Nothing like Nature — and Time — to provide a new perspective and grace you with healing. Yes, I’m sure your Princess already found your mom and dad, and she’s availed herself of plenty of cookies from them. I’m glad you took this time for yourself, Dawn, and I’m eager to see the rest of your photos!

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  11. Wow that is a beautiful photo! Good that you could get away.
    Princess Katie is waiting for you, I am sure of it…it all takes time:)

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    • I’m going to love seeing her again someday. And Bonnie and Daisy, and my childhood dog Sam. Not to mention the two guinea pigs, named Barney. We named them both Barney….I guess we were unimaginative kids.

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  12. So sad and so beautiful. ❤

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    • It truly was both. The lighthouse is where my parents honeymooned in 1952. Or 53. I can’t remember. They went back on their 50th anniversary. I try to stop there whenever I’m in the area, usually just for a moment or two, to say hello. It was nice to spend a whole night with them there. In the end we were there one whole night and several hours of the next night. I’ve got a few images to look at.

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  13. Absolutely beautiful! Looking at stars (especially with tear stained smiles) soothes the soul.

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  14. Beautiful images, words and feelings. Sending a virtual hug!

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