Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.


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Go vote. And other stories.

Today is November 6, 2012.  It’s election day.  I could write about the responsibility and privilege of being an American.  I could ask you to please head for the polls and vote with your heart and your head.  I could talk (again) about how grateful I will be to have this race finished.

But I won’t.  Instead I’ll tell you about my dream filled night.  I don’t think I’m anxious about voting in this election, but something sure was going on because I was awake for good portions of every hour.  And in between were long and detailed dreams.  I’ll give you an example of  three.

I was taking care of the business of a friend of mine who was off on vacation.  I have known Nancy for a long time and she has never been a Realtor, but it seems that she was in my dream.  I was entering data for her onto her webpage from pages of paper she had stored in a small wooden box. There was all sorts of information about model homes in a new development the details of which needed to be input.  Near the bottom of the box I found an invoice for commissions owed by Nancy to someone of $1.4M for permission to sell these homes.  And it said that she was responsible for the completion of millions of dollars worth of real estate that was only partially developed.  There were also 3 items in the very bottom of the box that looked like stuffed grape leaves but apparently were cigars to be enjoyed after the sale of a home.  There were supposed to be 5, according to the paperwork, but there were only 3.  That didn’t bother me as Nancy didn’t like cigars anyway.  I was more than a little bothered by the fact she owed $1.4 million to someone and I wondered if I had somehow committed her to this deal by entering the data on her website.  I immediately began to take information back off her site, hoping that the ‘once on the internet, always on the internet’ was not true.

Later in the night I was in some sort of RV.  We were moving very fast down a big river, looking out from behind a windshield that was obscured by mud.  But it might not have been a river, because occasionally I saw bits of a street curb flashing by.   Dad was driving.  Mom was there too, as were my current neighbors from across the street, Larry and his wife.  I don’t believe Mom or Dad ever met them…but there we all were, the five of us, screaming down a dirty river of water.  I was sleepy (no wonder, I hadn’t had a wink of sleep so far this night!) and took a nap.  When I woke Mom was driving and we were on a road.  I didn’t understand how that happened, but she told me this was one of those RVs that could be a boat OR a car.  Right.

And very early this morning, just before Katie-girl woke me at 5:30, I was dreaming that I was in a computer lab with lots of people.  My supervisor was  training us to use a program where we could simulate storms.  Specifically tornadoes.  We could build little model tornadoes and see how they ran through little model neighborhoods, and what damage they did.  I built one that took the roof right off a small house that is just up the road.  And then I built a monster tornado that dug a brand new giant lake that covered most of some  Midwestern state.  My supervisor got really mad at me because “I had used up all my program resources on that storm.”

Then Katie woke me up.  I was so confused!  I don’t know what’s going on in my head..but it sure was busy last night.  Now it’s time to go vote, and I’m glad I have my decisions already figured out.  And I’m glad it was all a dream, because it would be hard to concentrate with millions of dollars of unfinished real estate, floating RVs and  a super storm all running around in my head.

But just think.   Think of the people on the east coast who really do have much of this to deal with.  In real life.  Now go vote.

And be thankful that you can.


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Sabor Latino in Ann Arbor

Last night I had the enviable opportunity to listen to the Ann Arbor Symphony present a Latin inspired performance.  You should envy me; it was delightful.  Such energy!  Such emotion!  Such music!

They began the program with Don Juan, Op. 20, composed in 1888 by Richard Strauss. It tells the story of  a man looking for perfection in a woman.  Along the way it seems, perhaps more than once, that he has found perfect love.  But in the end he becomes disillusioned and disgusted with himself.  He allows the brother of one of his lady loves to kill him in a duel.   The music is beautiful, lyrical and lush…and in the last moments frenetic as the duel ends abruptly.  The piece closes softly with the end of Don Juan’s lusty life.

The Symphony then introduced Marco Sartor, the evening’s soloist, who plays guitar unlike anything I have ever heard.  Mr. Sartor is finishing up his PhD at Yale and we were so fortunate that he took a break to come to Ann Arbor to play.   At the lecture before the concert he said that the guitar could by played with different techniques, producing sound ranging from nasal to “as round as the tones from a flute.”   During the performance of two pieces, Concerto in D Major composed by Antonio Vivaldi in 1740, and Fantasia for a Gentleman composed by Joaquin Rodrigo in 1954, he showed us that range of sound and more.  He is an amazing artist.  Often I thought another instrument in the orchestra was playing, belatedly realizing it was the guitar.

Most unfamiliar to many of us, the Symphony played Huapango,  by Jose Pablo Moncayo.  This piece premiered in 1941.  Don’t be put off by the soft start, listen at least to minute 5 and I think you’ll be hooked.   It’s the kind of piece that requires concentration from members of the orchestra.  The kind of piece my director would be telling us not to listen for an instinctive entry but to “do the math and count!”  This one would be fun to play, and at the end you could see almost every member of the group grinning.  And all around me after the thundering applause died away I heard people say:  “That was fun!” and “I’ve never heard that before, wasn’t it exciting!”

The evening ended on a dramatic note with the playing of Bolero, composed by Maurice Ravel in 1928.  You’ve all heard this piece in movies.  I wondered if I would be envisioning Bo Derek running on the beach with her hair in cornrows.  For the record I did not think of her once during this performance.  The snare drum, placed in the center of the orchestra kept up the relentless pace, beginning softly accompianed by the flute, and growing increasingly intense as different soloists elegantly played the theme, each a bit louder and more intensely then the one before.  I began to feel sorry for the cellos and violas  who were plucking the same 3 notes over and over for what seemed hundreds of measures.  But finally they and the violins were drawn into the fray and the whole piece ended on a jubilant and intense note.  We all gasped, even though we knew how it would end.

This was one of those evenings where you just had to smile, from beginning to end.  What a gift this organization gives to their community.  What a priceless gift.

I haven’t stopped smiling yet.


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Honey, Bill Clinton is on the phone for you.

Bill Clinton called last night.  His was one of several calls we received that evening asking us to vote one way or another on a proposal or for a candidate.  Yes he was recorded, and no he didn’t ask for my husband by name.  But still, to pick up the phone and hear a former president say “This is Bill Clinton and I’m asking you to vote yes on proposal two”  did seem a little surreal.

Here in Michigan, aside from the race for President, Senator, Representative, university regents, judges, assorted local officials and a tax millage we also have six proposals to vote on.  Five of them are proposals to amend the state constitution.  This is serious business that should take serious consideration.

People are being inundated with information on both sides of every issue.  The advertisements range from sensitive and seemingly thoughtful, playing on our sympathy, to strident and threatening, playing on our fears.  How do we know what to believe?  We can’t even tell from the names of the organizations funding the ads.  One evening I listed to three adds in a row regarding proposal four which revolves around home health care providers.  Two of the ads were asking us to support the proposal.  The ad in the middle asked us not to support it.  Two of the ads said the other ad was an outright lie.  It’s patently obvious someone is lying,  but who?

Each issue is the same; a barrage of ads, phone calls, mailers and editorials.   And though I understand both sides must tell their story, with so much on the ballot the end result of this avalanche of information appears to be confusion and frustration.  I’m tired of it.  I wish we could all have a calm discussion about what each of these proposals would really do, and then brainstorm together about what each of them might do unintentionally, be it good or bad.  Because I don’t think any of these proposals have been thought out thoroughly.  Every piece of legislation and each constitutional amendment has the potential for unintentional consequences.  Each piece of propaganda we receive tells only one side of the story.

Tonight as we’re listening to the latest robo call and sifting through the mailbox’s latest deposit I am counting the days until November 6th.  I’m not sure which way I’ll vote on these proposals, but I don’t want any more help, thank you very much.  I’ll figure it out on my own with the information I already have.

Don’t call again, Mr. President.  It was nice talking to you but we’re all good here.  A little bit of peace and time to think is what we need now.

Please.


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Sleepy girl

You awake Mama?

It’s 5:00 a.m. at Katie’s house.

Katie:  Sigh.  Huff.  Double huff.

Me:  Katie!  Go lay down.!

Katie:  Whine

Me:  Katie. G.O. l.a.y. DOWN!

Katie:  Sigh.

4 minutes later….

Katie:  Whine.

Me:  Sigh.

We get up, go outside.  She wanders around just in case there’s something interesting.  Nothing.  We go back inside, and I begin the day.  So it’s a little early, all the better to get things done.  Right?

While I’m in the shower she curls up in her favorite bathroom spot and goes to sleep.  Stepping out of the shower I wait for her to lick the water off my feet; she does this every morning.  After I’ve stood there awhile I realize she hasn’t moved.  Except her eyes are open and she’s watching me.

Katie:  I’m too tired to get up and lick your feet Mama.  I had to get up early and walk around outside in the wet grass and now my fur is all messed up!

Me:  Sigh.


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Winds of change

Winds strip the last of the fall color away.

I had planned to talk about the political ads we’re being inundated with, on TV, radio, the robocalls claiming our evenings, the flyers in our mailboxes.  They surround us, overwhelm us and most of all confuse us.  Yes I had planned on talking about that and my hope that the election comes soon so that we can all find a bit of peace.

But tonight  the news is full of Hurricane Sandy, and we must focus on the East Coast.  All the political jargon and angst fades away.  What’s important right now is that people have made their way to a safe place; made arrangements to safely wait out the storm.

My hope is that things are not as dire as the weather models and reporters are predicting.  That we get some or a lot of rain, maybe even snow, but everyone survives and structures withstand the elements.

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Mostly my hope is that all of you out on the East Coast, my blogging friends, my customers and all your friends and families make it through tonight with nothing more than damp shoes and windblown hair.

Stay safe, all of you.  And please be careful.


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Last flowers

Well.  Enough about baseball in October.  Let me show you the last blooms of fall in my garden.  This is monks head; or aconitum, if you’re the more scientific type.  It blooms very late in the season, often after a frost

The bluish purple end of the summer.

It’s very beautiful and I’m always glad to see some color in the garden this late in the year.  But it,and the end of baseball, mean summer is really truly without question over.

Darn. (But click on this last picture to see it up close.)

The end.


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World Series Musing

Living near Detroit we’ve supported great teams in all sports.   Yes even football though that might have been a long time ago.  Right now we’re all focused on baseball and the World Series because, though our season had ups and downs, Detroit made it into the World Series!  Really!!  Sometimes we didn’t think it was going to happen; we chased the Chicago Cubs for what seemed like forever.  Then we faced the New York Yankees, and because I’m no expert I was afraid.   Historically I always felt the Yankees were big trouble.  Turned out they were not…and here we are in the biggest series of the sport.

All along the way I said that if the Tigers could get to the World Series I’d be pleased….even proud of them, regardless of the outcome.  But now we’re here, and down two games to none…and I’m trying to still feel that way.  Hours before game three, the first game back here at home, I’m trying to feel optimistic.

I’m still proud of them.  But darn it would be nice to win this one.


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Rally report

Mom! Can we get to work yet?

Katie and I survived and she’s pretty full of herself too.  Cause she has a pretty red ribbon to add to her collection.  She thinks she looks particularly good with red.   But of course it’s a much longer story than that.

We arrived early, way too early, again.  Lesson learned.  We were there for 3 hours before it was actually time for me to walk the Advanced course.  By then Katie was pretty much over it, but she waited patiently in her crate for me to go through the course.  There were only two of us in Advanced A; a woman named Kim and her sheltie Mona.   Mona is just the sweetest girl I’ve met in a long time!   Kim and I did the walk through together.  Good thing too, because I fixed something she had a misconception on and she pointed out we had missed station #4 totally the first walk through!

I’ve been working on memorizing the signs and perfecting my footwork all week.  I practiced pivots on my lunch walk yesterday.  I called ‘”come!” and “down!” and “heel!” on my commutes.   I worried about her popping up from downs, following me too fast when she was supposed to stay.  I worried about forgetting to ask her to sit when I should, or asking her to sit when I shouldn’t.  I worried.

What I didn’t worry about…ever…was her jump.  She loves to jump.  She’ll jump anything…and then she will often turn around and jump it again.  So the fact there was a jump at station 2 was not alarming.  Until she walked around it and then looked at me like ….”What?  You wanted something else?”  So there goes 10 points right off the bat.

I sighed and shook my head and we finished the rest of the course.  Other than a couple of crooked sits she was perfect.  The things I had worried about were beautiful.   She’s something else, she is.

Then we were out of the ring and I told her she was a good girl, which she was.  I think I just wasn’t going fast enough to get her running, and she didn’t realize she was supposed to leave my left leg and go jump.  We watched the other woman in our class do the course and they did great too.

Afterward Kim was excited for me because the score they put up for me was 99.  Her score was 95.  But I knew that wasn’t right, with no jump the best we could get was 90.  So I talked to the steward and at a break we talked to the judge who was grateful that I told her.  I was glad too.

So we ended up in 2nd place of two…but I’m proud of Katie and her score..the judge gave us 90 and I’ll take it!

Katie says it was a long day for a little ribbon…but she’s willing to do it again, and if I give her enough warning she’ll even do the jump!

Maybe.

Mine!