Katie and I spent Halloween day wandering together under beautiful blue skies. The leaves here are finally turning, and in the early morning light they were spectacular. Walking under them, with my girl, watching the light shift and glow was special.

When Katie got sick last spring we hoped we could get her to fall, when the temperatures drop and she has, in the most recent years, transformed from a middle aged, lethargic dog of summer into a youngster who throughly enjoys her walks.

Somehow, in the fall, she turns back time and prances during her walks in the woods and around the neighborhood. But this year, the year we needed those cooler temperatures to hurry up so she could enjoy them, October held on to summer with an iron grip.

I enjoyed those warm days with temperatures in the 70s, but worried that Katie and I wouldn’t get our cool walks in the woods. So on the last day of October, with early morning temperatures dropping and as the sun began to creep up into the sky, Katie and I headed out in search of adventure.

We stopped first in Milford, a town that always dresses the storefronts for fall, complete with a giant pumpkin in front of a fancy restaurant. For the past few years I’ve taken Katie there for a photo shoot.

This year we were disappointed, as the entire town is dug up with some sort of construction project, and the giant pumpkin was less than giant. Still, we walked around town for a little bit. Like the princess she is, she insisted on doing some window shopping, checking out every single shop doorway. That made me smile.

So I took a window shot of the two of us.

But we didnt stay in town long, we headed out to my favorite park, and to her favorite walk in that park. The color as the sun rose was spectacular.

And walking there, on a service road through the trees with my girl, I contemplated the shortness of life. Though her numbers were better at the last vet visit, Katie is still near the end of her life.

She’s a happy girl, and good at hiding her discomfort. She still likes to go on adventures, she still loves her suppers. She still loves us. But sometime, maybe sooner then later, we’re going to have to make that hard decision.

And it’s not just her. I’ve been dog sitting for a neighbor whose husband had a combination of cancer and heart disease. He’s been in the hospital for the last few weeks, and this week, when she thought he was coming home, he died.

He was a very nice man, loved his garden, his wife, his dogs. I’d talk to him when I was out walking Katie. He’d always tell me what he was planning for next year’s garden, “if I’m still here,” he’d say. Now his flowers are still blooming in our long, extended fall, but he isn’t here.

I dog sat for his two pups while his wife and family attended his funeral. I would have gone myself, but my time was better spent taking care of the two little dogs who have lost their man.

And another friend just had surgery, leaving her two cats at home for the duration. She had someone to come in and take care of them, but I stopped by to play with them too. They always came running for a tummy rub, or a romp through a tunnel. I enjoyed spending time with them, but they’re so much happier now that their person is back home.

And there’s my own family member who has spent the last two weeks in the hospital and had major surgery too. She has a long road ahead of her, and though she has no pets for me to take care of, she’ll still need some visits and perhaps help with some household chores.

It has seemed like trouble and tragedy is everywhere. But it’s easier to bear while walking through a beautiful woods with my girl. And someday, hopefully far in the future, when I don’t have my girl walking next to me, well, I’ll have the memories, and the pictures. And that will have to do.

I’m grateful that I have had so many years with her. I’m grateful I knew my neighbor and his gardens. I’m grateful to the friend with the cats, and the long life of my relative now recuperating at home.

But sometimes…sometimes it feels like time has flown, and life is short, and there’s just no way to slow it all down.

November 2, 2021 at 12:34 am
A very heartfelt post. I know exactly where you are coming from. Our dog is also near the end of her life but she still enjoys her food, her walks, albeit short, and her nightly treats. We can only live each day to the fullest and take comfort in the good times and cherish the fond memories of those who passed before us.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:06 pm
Sending hugs to you as you struggle with similar decisions. Katie is still happy, but sometimes I look at her and think maybe she’s in pain. If I could figure it out for sure I’d have to let her go. But so far it’s not obvious. At least to me. I hope she’ll tell me.
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November 2, 2021 at 4:10 am
A wonderful post Dawn.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:06 pm
Thank you Mike.
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November 2, 2021 at 4:38 am
Oh Dawn, I’m sitting here reading with tears in my eyes… ❤
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November 3, 2021 at 9:06 pm
I know. Katie has such a fan base…it is going to be tough for a lot of people.
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November 2, 2021 at 6:30 am
It’s odd in a way ..the day we are born we begin the journey to dying. For all living creatures and plants it is always the end goal…..but the real purpose is the journey…what we see, do, feel, all those memories sustain us as the end draws nearer.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:07 pm
Katie has had an amazing journey, a high point of it was her visit to you.
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November 2, 2021 at 6:46 am
I feel the same as you Dawn. Yesterday a friend I have known since in my 20’s died. He had been sick. Though we hadn’t seen each other except for occasionally bumping into each other over the years, – I felt the loss deeply, maybe because it reminded me of how many years have passed in a blink, it saddened me to think this vibrant man was gone from his family.
My dogs lived to 20 and it was still not enough, so I understand the pain there too. I am happy to see Katie among the foliage, and happy she is out and about- and yes, time has flown. ❤ ❤
Thank you for your timely words for me this morning.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:09 pm
I’m sorry to hear about your friend. I heard that a friend from work died last week from covid. He was so young, so funny, such a good guy. I’m having trouble wrapping my mind around the fact he’s gone. I guess I should expect more loss as I get older, but covid seems to have sped all that up. It’s hard, isn’t it. But 20 years for your dog! That’s amazing! Even then, it’s still hard. I so much don’t want Katie to go. I want her to live forever. Sometimes I forget she’s sick, and when I remember again it’s just as jarring as it was the first time I heard. Sigh.
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November 4, 2021 at 7:48 pm
I know Dawn, both of our dogs lived almost 20 years, and because their last years were so difficult it was not easy to remember them in their younger days. I still weep when thinking of them, though they are gone for 9 and 12 years. They do leave a lasting imprint within us
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November 2, 2021 at 7:26 am
I understand the sentiment!
I’ve been neglecting the world of WordPress lately as life has held a lot of changes. We decided to put our house on the market and will be moving to be closer to family, because as you said, life is short. I am grateful that our future home has a wooded backyard, so hopefully there will be more bird photos in 2022!
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November 3, 2021 at 9:10 pm
Wow! I hope your new house has just as many beautiful birds! I bet you will miss your back yard, but I get wanting to be closer to family. I look forward to your photos whenever you have time to post more!
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November 2, 2021 at 8:23 am
Katie loves to spend time with you. Glad you got some cool fall weather that she could enjoy. Beautiful photos as always.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:10 pm
Yes, she loves us so much. She loves her walks and her meals and her naps, but mostly she loves us. We are so lucky.
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November 2, 2021 at 8:32 am
Oh, Dawn…💔
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November 3, 2021 at 9:10 pm
I know…
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November 2, 2021 at 8:54 am
This post is beautiful, even if it is a bit sad. It reminds us to live in the moment! Hugs to you both! Your photos are gorgeous, and Katie looks so happy in them. 🤗
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November 3, 2021 at 9:11 pm
Katie was very very happy on that walk. She loves to be out in the woods. With me of course.
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November 2, 2021 at 8:57 am
Life is cruelly short. I hug my dogs and kiss them every day like it’s our last. Bring if service is also my way to show my affection and concern. Give Katie a little hug for me.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:11 pm
I’ve been hugging her hard for a long time now, since she got to be about 9 and I started anticipating all of this She thought I was crazy, as she’s not a hugger. But she puts up with me.
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November 2, 2021 at 9:03 am
WHAT A POST!
So many great shots of an awesome Princess –
AND so many beyond great thoughts –
LiVE IN THE MOMENT for THE MOMENT – we never know –
With this as inspiration, Willow and I will make sure a trip to DAWN’s in part of our adventure today!
H&K&W,
Willow and Phyll
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November 3, 2021 at 9:12 pm
Hope your trip to DAWN’s was fun!!
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November 2, 2021 at 9:08 am
Crying over my coffee…thank you for such a heartfelt post. ❤️
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November 3, 2021 at 9:12 pm
You are welcome, sorry to make you cry. I guess when I spread my grief out it gives me a little relief but it does mean all of you have to take on a bit too.
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November 2, 2021 at 9:43 am
Such a beautiful piece, both the words and images. Brought tears to my eyes. Death and loss are a sorrowful part of life. Very important to cherish loved ones while they are here.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:13 pm
So true. Katie is getting lots of hugs and kisses, which she tolerates as long as there are treats involved.
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November 2, 2021 at 10:26 am
Oh Dawn…my heart breaks. The truth and beauty of this post stagger me.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:13 pm
My heart is breaking slowly too. Kind of like taking the band-aid off slowly. Excruciating.
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November 2, 2021 at 11:20 am
Oh my! There is so much beauty in this post, Dawn, and sadness, although perhaps more wistful than sad? I’m not sure, but there are so many feelings roiling around in my brain and my tummy now, and the tears are so near the surface. A gentle (or not-so-gentle?) reminder that life is short, and each day needs to be lived with appreciation for every minute of it.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:15 pm
Yes we all know how short life is. It does make my eyes leak and my tummy rumble. Katie sometimes gives me kisses which I appreciate but she’s mostly not a hugger or kisser and would rather that I don’t do either to her. Too bad Katie…sometimes I just need a sheltie hug.
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November 3, 2021 at 10:04 pm
Shasta is a hugger and a kisser, and lately has become very verbal. We share our dislike of this aging thing.
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November 3, 2021 at 10:13 pm
Awwwww
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November 2, 2021 at 3:32 pm
I’m typing this through tears, Dawn. Having trod roughly the same path with my Dallas, I know how short our fur-kids’ lives are … and I just want to shout, It isn’t fair! They give us so much love and loyalty; then, in what feels like a blink, they’re gone. I’m glad you and the Princess are getting out for walks and making more memories (and taking beautiful photos!). I’m glad she’s still got her spunky nature (and tongue-in-cheek comments), and I dread the day she’s gone. However, I refuse to go down that path now, preferring to gaze into her soulful eyes and see how much she loves her mama!
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November 3, 2021 at 9:16 pm
It does seem like she just came to us yesterday…yet it would be 15 years at the end of March. I don’t think she’ll still be here then, but her 15th birthday will be in mid-December, and odds are she’ll be here to celebrate then. 15 years sure went by quick.
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November 4, 2021 at 2:20 pm
They always do, when you’ve got a good dog … and the Princess, for sure, is! Give her a hug for me!
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November 2, 2021 at 4:30 pm
The beauty of those leaves, and of your lovely girl’s face! Some years are full of sadness. We went through a spell from Easter to July when those we loved were suffering or losing partners or dying themselves. It’s hard to stay positive and resilient. But we do just have to put one foot in front of the other, and try to enjoy the beauty around us.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:18 pm
Sometimes it does seem like there is only tragedy all around us. And sometimes that is even true. But there’s always something beautiful around too if you take a breath and look. In 2004 we lost my mom and my dad, and my husband’s dad and my uncle and my best friend. I don’t think we could ever have anything worse than all that, but I guess you never know. I’m sorry for your awful spring/summer. ALl we can do is take a baby step and move forward, bringing the memories of them all along with us.
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November 4, 2021 at 2:54 am
It’s true, and in fact I’ve probably just had the best October of my life, until I found out on Sunday that my son has Covid! Sometimes just putting one foot in front of the other gets you there. Thanks, Dawn! Have a good weekend!
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November 4, 2021 at 6:14 am
Sending hugs and hoping your son is OK.
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November 4, 2021 at 6:35 am
Thanks 🤗💕
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November 2, 2021 at 8:51 pm
Your photos made me happy…good memories and counting blessings…we have to appreciate the moments! I am so sorry your relatives, neighbors, friends and Katie are struggling. It seems to be an up and down road we never know what is around the bend. Hugs for Katie!
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November 3, 2021 at 9:18 pm
I know you guys know how short life can be. And how the road gets to be a roller coaster too. Hugs.
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November 2, 2021 at 10:54 pm
Beautiful photos. Beautiful words, Dawn. Touched my heart.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:19 pm
Thank you Ann.
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November 3, 2021 at 12:28 am
So bittersweet. And all the perfect photos to go along with it. I wish your family member the best of healing.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:19 pm
Thank you. I’m going to visit her on Friday.
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November 3, 2021 at 7:13 am
So glad you and Katie got out in that beautiful woods, Dawn. We have had an exceptionally beautiful autumn in Michigan this year, arriving late and now with plenty of bright color still as November cold comes on.
Like you, I reflect often on time. We lost several old friends this year, very dear, but the two of us at home — three, counting Peasy — are going into the winter in pretty good health. And though our human social life is constrained by our special needs dog, whose lack of people skills will probably always need to be “managed,” we enjoy our evening movie time together, especially that first half-hour of the movie when Peasy accepts our invitation to join us on the bed, and we pet our little snuggle-bug while he lies blissfully between us, all three of us soothed by a flooding of oxytocin and serotonin for which we don’t need pills.
Last night our movie was a documentary on “How the Earth Was Made,” beginning four-point-something billion years ago. Somehow that was strangely soothing, too.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:21 pm
I know it’s been a tough year this year for you and your friends. So many gone. I remember my dad saying that when he and mom got to a certain age the Christmas letters were all about doctor appointments and funerals…I guess I know what he was talking about now.
Katie and I enjoyed this walk in the woods so much. We were lucky that we got it in, because a frost hit last night and the leaves are all falling today. But she’s glad it’s cooler out, so I won’t complain. Does Peasy like cooler weather? Or, being a dog from the SW, does he get cold?
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November 3, 2021 at 10:34 am
This is a beautiful post, Dawn. I am glad that sweet Katie has rebounded a bit so she can enjoy “her” Fall colors and favorite walk with you. Sending you all love and hugs, and prayers. Please give Katie a loving pat for me… 💕
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November 3, 2021 at 9:21 pm
I will, Denise Yes, I’m glad she’s been able to enjoy the fall now that it’s finally arrived. Now I’m sort of hoping she makes it until we have some snow. She loves snow.
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November 3, 2021 at 10:40 am
Such a charming way to talk about life. Your photos are beautiful, it hasn’t been a pretty fall here. I like Katie’s attitude, and her summation that: “Life is a road, mama.” So true, so easily forgotten.
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November 3, 2021 at 9:23 pm
Sort of sounds like “life is a highway….” I wonder if that’s what was in my mind when I heard her say that while looking at her photo on that leaf strewn road. But it’s very very true.
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November 4, 2021 at 9:04 am
This is a beautiful and heartbreaking post. Life is short, and sometimes remembering that helps us appreciate today just a tiny bit more. ((hugs))
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November 4, 2021 at 9:28 pm
Thank you. I’m trying to just stay in the day. Tomorrow I go visit that relative.
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November 4, 2021 at 10:30 am
It’s hard not to get really affected when everyone around us seems to be having trouble. You always put such an interesting perspective on things Dawn
Much love to you and all you’re facing at the moment. And of course hugs to our Katie girl.
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November 4, 2021 at 9:29 pm
Katie says thank you. She says I shouldn’t feel sad, look at all the fun we’ve had. I tell her she needs to live forever, but as a youngster, not an old dog with aches and pains. She says she will be a young dog after she crosses the bridge. Sigh.
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November 4, 2021 at 3:43 pm
Beautiful post, Dawn. I teared up reading it. Katie is right. Don’t try to figure it all out. Just enjoy the moments.
So many beautiful images in this post. Hugs and love to you and Katie. ♥
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November 4, 2021 at 9:29 pm
Thank you. This is hard, and she isn’t even gone yet! She has a vet appointment in a couple weeks, we’ll see what her numbers are then. Until then I try not to think about it, but it’s hard not to.
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November 6, 2021 at 3:59 am
A lovely post Dawn and the autumn colours were never so beautiful. You have done it perfectly with your last shot. We find happiness when we live in moments. A warm hug to you both.
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November 6, 2021 at 5:14 pm
Thank you. It was a very good walk with my girl. She thought so too.
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November 6, 2021 at 12:24 pm
The colors are great and so are the pictures. Enjoy the walks and the camping trips with Katie and know you did right by her always. She could still have plenty of time so try not to dwell on those lab numbers. I think our dogs sense when something is wrong with us.
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November 6, 2021 at 5:22 pm
Yes, I try to remind myself that she has had an extraordinary life and done so many more things than she might have with other fur moms and dads. She’s traveled to Florida and met her boyfriend, and walked on the Atlantic Ocean beach, and then in Alabama where she got to go for boat rides and bark at waves, and she’s camped all over Michigan, and saw the Mackinaw Bridge, she’s run on the shores of two Great Lakes, she’ hiked in all sorts of woods, she’s slept upside down on beds, and inside tents. She has a big beautiful yard to guard from squirrels and rabbits. And she has 4 of her own bed scattered around the house in all the best places. Can’t beat all of that.
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