Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.

Foggy glow


It all started, as things often do, with an early morning appointment.

For years Katie-girl got me up extra early and while we were outside doing her business I’d usually witness beautiful but fleeting things. Geese or swans flying low with bellies glowing in the early light. Full moons dipping below the branches of our trees. A fox slipping silently through the woods. The flick of a deer’s white tail. Wisps of fog dancing on the pond.

But I haven’t been out in the early morning light lately.

Last week, once our 7:30 a.m. oil change was completed, my sister and I were driving home just as the sun was trying to break through the fog. It was beautiful, and we looked at each other and said….”Where can we go to get pictures of this?”

And…lucky for us we were only one exit away from one of my favorite parks, Holly Recreation, where Katie and I used to camp and wander the trails.

I felt a twinge of grief as I contemplated visiting one of her parks without her. But as we entered the park I realized the best place for pictures would be down near the lake and there was a parking lot Katie and I hardly ever used that would work perfectly for morning fog photos.

I felt relieved. I could be in the park, but not in Katie’s favorite part where I would feel her loss the most. Progress ,on this grief journey, is often made with tiny steps.

We parked and walked up and down that section of the road, taking pictures of the sun rising above the water, and the fog through the trees.

The reflections were gorgeous and we probably looked like crazy old ladies as we giggled and called back and forth to “come here and look at this!”

And when our fingers were frozen and our feet were soggy we climbed back into the car laughing as we cranked the heat up and scrolled through the images on our phones, each one better than the one before.

You can’t beat a good morning adventure – Katie taught me that over and over and over again. I like to think she was with us that morning, saying “I told you mama! You have to get out of bed early in the morning to catch the best stuff!”

I know, little girl, I know.

Author: dawnkinster

I'm a long time banker having worked in banks since the age of 17. I took a break when I turned 50 and went back to school. I graduated right when the economy took a turn for the worst and after a year of library work found myself unemployed. I was lucky that my previous bank employer wanted me back. So here I am again, a long time banker. Change is hard.

31 thoughts on “Foggy glow

  1. Katie is sooo right! You do have to get up early to catch the best stuff! And something tells me she was right there with you, gently pointing you in the right directions to find so many beautiful foggy scenes. Hugs to you as you trudge with baby steps the grief journey — I hope the rawness is easing a bit.


  2. The road less traveled – the park trail less walked. Lovely.


  3. What enchanting photos! Katie girl knew! (and good luck with the baby steps, it really is the best way)


  4. Great photos. Great that you made the stop, even without your little princess. I’m sure she wants you to go to some of those favorite spots, but perhaps working around them first works for now…


    • I had a planned walk in her woods with a friend and his dog that got postponed because he got sick. So pretty soon we’ll be walking her favorite trail. A different dog will be sniffing the good spots, but I imagine she’ll be guiding us all.

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  5. I so love capturing the fog! What a beauty of a share, Dawn.
    And, eventually, you will actually seek out the places you used to go with Katie. Eventually. When you are ready and the twinge will get ever slighter over time. Course, there is a regular snap now and again but that’s to be expected.
    I still look for Zeke when I open a pack of cheese!


  6. Beautiful photos as I love foggy mornings. Baby steps are best and I’m sure she was there with you in spirit. How fun to share with your sister as I can hear you both giggle as you walked along sharing the morning! Thank you for sharing, made me SMILE! 😀❤️


  7. OH just WOW, they DO get better and better! Beaming with appreciation!


  8. Stunning pictures! Katie was right. The early bird gets the best photos.


  9. Of course she was with you! You think she would let you go to HER park without her?
    I love that they stay with us.
    And the pictures are beautiful of course. I think my very favorite is 2nd from the last. Then the last.


  10. Again, I can’t pick a favorite amongst these. Oh but wait, yes I can … the favorite is Katie. What a wise one and she loves you so much. Oh those photos are gorgeous, Dawn. Sigh, ok, I guess I need to get up early, maybe. 🙂


  11. Ok, my favorite photos are 4, 6, 8, 9 … heavy on 8 and 9 … or maybe 4. 🙂


  12. Stunning photos, Dawn. Katie is absolutely right about the early mornings. 🙂


  13. I can feel Katie girl there in these photos – just beyond the mist. What a magical morning.


  14. The last picture looks like a John Constable painting from the Romantic era.


  15. Beautiful photos! You and your sister had a good outing!

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