Change Is Hard

…but change is certain.


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Your ‘one place’

I was wandering around in blog-land -you know how that goes – you check someone’s blog, and they talk about another blog and you go there, and then over there, and the next thing you know you’ve found something interesting that makes you stop and think.   That’s what happened tonight.  It was an old blog entry I ended up visiting; a guy writing about traveling to your ‘one place,’   a place you’ve never been but would like to see before you die.  Sort of a one bucket bucket list.

You all know how much I love to travel, how I yearn for travel when I’m trapped in my beige cubicle, how I believe I was born a nomad.  So this concept intrigues me.  He writes about putting together a plan to see your ‘one place’ and his plan makes sense to me…take it in small steps and you’re very likely to make your dream come true.

So.  Where would my ‘one place’ be?  I’m thinking about it.  Where in the whole world would I really like to visit, somewhere I’ve never been, somewhere I wouldn’t likely go unless I actively planned?  I’m struggling with this, which surprises me.  For someone who wants to go go go it seems odd that I can’t put my finger on my very own one place.

Where would your one place be?

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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!

Merry Christmas everyone!

Katie and I would like to wish all of you, all over the world, a wonderful holiday.  This year it will be just the three of us together, Katie, her Dad and me.  We will enjoy a quiet day, mixed in with a bit of barking at imaginary monsters at the front door.  She’s practicing that now.  Later on I’ll cook a holiday dinner for us and maybe we’ll watch a movie.  Or take a nap.  Simple, quiet ways to spend the one precious day off from work that I have.

Oh wait!  Katie says it’s CHRISTMAS Mama!  We have to have an adventure!  Well.  You never know.  A good romp at the park might fit into our simple family holiday.

And then a nap.


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Playing fetch with my Mama

Katie here.  I would just like to say that my Mama makes me play fetch.

If I don't look at her she'll let me take a nap.

If I don’t look at her she’ll let me take a nap.

We play fetch a lot.

I keep bringing her back the ball.

I keep bringing her back the ball.

And even though I get sort of bored with it, I continue till she gives up.

And keep bringing it back.

And keep bringing it back.

Cause it makes her happy.

It's a never ending job.

It’s a never ending job.

And that’s my job, to make my Mama happy.

Of course sometimes a girl's got to say enough!

Of course sometimes a girl’s got to say enough!

And I’m very good at it.  Don’t you know.

Thank you, thank you very much.

Thank you, thank you very much.


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Hunting down a heffalump

Imported Photos 00139Last night at the end of a very long and difficult week I told my husband I had thought about checking into a hotel so that I could sleep all night and wake up when I woke up as opposed to when Katie-girl thought I should be up and on full alert.  We laughed about that a little bit and I said that I had high hopes of being able to sleep till 7 because it stayed dark later in the mornings and Katie hadn’t been all that eager to get up at 6 with me all week.  Perhaps she would stay asleep this dark December morning.

My husband, being the hero that he is, took Katie to sleep in the master bedroom with him and I got to sleep in quiet undisturbed luxury in the guest room.  I woke a couple of times, disoriented, but fell right back to sleep and dreamed long and complicated dreams none of which I can quite remember this morning.  I woke up on my own at 7:30!  It was a wonderful thing.

I got up and let Katie out of the other bedroom.  She appeared to be standing patiently by the door, though I hadn’t heard her bark.  How she knew I was up is beyond me.  Sheltie telepathy I guess.  She was very excited to see me, all wriggling and happy kisses.  I think she thought I had gone to that hotel after all.

I took her out to do her morning business and could see the tracks from the night before when my husband had taken her out while I was sleeping.  There was a big circle, his footprints in the middle and at least two rows of little paw prints  at the outside edge.  She’s a circle kind of girl.  This morning her nose went right down into the paw prints and she began to circle, faster and faster, huffing all the way, tracking some beast that had been in her yard.  I laughed at her and asked her if she was trying to track a heffalump.  (Do you remember the Pooh story in which he and Piglet were scared but bravely tracked the heffalump’s footprints around and around a big bush, noting there appeared to be more and more heffalump tracks as they went around?)  Katie huffed at me, tossed her head and did her jobs.  She does not like to be embarrassed by her Mama.

Inside we played a rousing game of fetch and then I promised her a game of Frisbee in the snow covered back yard later this afternoon.  She’s waiting for me at the back door now.  She’s going to make me pay for that dog free night of sweet sleep.

Yes she is.

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Cherishing our children

Last week’s tragic loss of so many children has caused me to pay more attention to the children around me.  I don’t have kids, and have never paid much attention to them.  But I saw the anguish of the parents, and I have experienced anguish somewhat like their pain.  So I get it.  These families will live with this loss forever.

Driving back and forth to work I pass the small local cemetery.  I’ve noticed a little cherub on one gravestone close to the road and just lately have noticed red flowers there as well.  This past weekend I went to investigate.

Such a short life.

Such a short life.

This is the marker for what must have been twins, Amy Louise and Ann Leola Cranston, born and died on Feb 12, 1939.  Someone has left red silk roses for them.  Think about it.  Someone has been missing these two for seventy-three years.  They lived one day and have been missed and not forgotten for almost three quarters of a century.  Just think how long the children we lost on Friday will be remembered.

Forever.

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Santa’s music

Santa reviews the music

Santa reviews the music

With all the events on Friday I didn’t tell you  how our community band’s Christmas concert went.  The concert opened with a few pieces played by a local hand-bell choir.  Their soft gentle melodies soothed our souls in a way few things could.  Though I have to say during “Greensleeves” it was pretty hard not to let the tears slide down my  checks.   As our conductor said at the end of their selections; “I think they’ve taken us to the peaceful place we need to be.”

When it was our turn to play we sat up on that high school stage and looked out into that large audience, filled with families complete with grandparents and little children.   We could still feel our hearts hurting but we were also filled with resolve to salvage something of this magical time of the year.  And so we played.  Yes there were a few bumps, and  some bad moments where we lost our concentration as well as the melody, but there were also joyous moments and fun filled moments and laughs and smiles and rousing applause.

Santa came to visit us and conducted a few of the pieces.  We always enjoy him and are especially honored to have his attention at this busy time of the year.  The children in the audience could hardly wait to visit with him after the concert.

Santa rehearses the band.

Santa rehearses the band.

In the end what felt almost inappropriate as we were driving to the venue turned out to be  just right.  In the midst of overwhelming sadness we created a little bubble of joy and for a couple of hours we were reminded to enjoy our families, to share some holiday spirit, to appreciate our community, and especially to enjoy the moment because, as we all know, the moment is all we have.

Let each of your moments be filled with love, music and warmth.

And we're on!

And we’re on!